Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Last month I heard from my husband that he have a short term girlfriend much younger than myself, more than 13 years younger of me. I was shock in the first time. I and my husband bringing some ripe mangoes, and I dont know where we are going my husband did not tell me where we are going, he just said just wait and see okay, then we went to the little houses and my husband said to me give that mangoes to Mae. I said to Mae, ahhh your Mae. I heard about her from our friends and she is the one who keep texted to my husband cellphone. The reason why I know she texted to my husband it is because one time my husband done some work and he is busy reading his messages and he give his cellphone to me and I read it. I read the name Mae wants you to visit her house. I said to my husband what house, and who's this Mae name? Then I found out that he been cheated me for a year. Then I was surprise that we give her a ripe mangoes when our mango trees full of fruits, I still hold of my emotions and be nice to her. I said to Mae the gf of my husband, ahhhh you are the one who keep texted to my husband. Mae response to me, I am a Virgin Mary not you. I dont like you. Then my mind was blank, I forgot what I feel inside me. Then when we reach home, I fought my husband because my emotion-ed gone back to me again. I was very upset to my husband and I cried and shouted to him. Its painful to me because he been cheated me for a year and I just know it, and he dont want me to do the same to him. Plus I can not do it such thing too, I say it because I was very upset to my husband.
Later on while I was talking and tears all over my face. I realize that I am lucky compare to Mae. Because first of all, I have a house, I have farm, I have money in the bank, I have my husband too. My husband said to me he wont leave me because of her but if I keep giving him a problems he will leave me. I realize to myself, do I survive without my husband? To me its not, I still need some body to love me and care for me. I love my husband no matter what happened woman is not a hindrance to my love and care for him. I can accept my husband of what he is, and all his love and care for me, I treasures them in my mind and heart. I want to love and care my husband tell he died. Little fun for himself I dont mind as long as he wont leave me. I know I can find another one but the years living together to me its a gold. I realize when I took a married vows I promise for bitter and for worst tell death to us part. I mean those words. When I was sick my husband is with me, I do the same to my husband too but that is showing love and care, showing also the married vows for better and for worst. When I was sick in the head my husband care for me, listen to me, and let me drink my medicine and etc. He love and care for me. Then I realize his little side from time to time that I have to accept too, because he is happy. I have to give his happiness to show for better and for worst married vows. I realize too that, what I do I have to be nice with my husband girlfriend. Be friend with her, and knows about her. Because I dont want my husband and I will separate because of the woman only. I said these words to my husband, no matter what happen I dont want you and I will separate. We stuck together forever. My husband said to me too, that we stuck each other Cres. I still trust my husband even though I know he cheated me.
Yesterday, I have a foreigner friend looking for a girl friend. My husband gf Mae is really pitiful when I heard about her family back ground. No money to buy nice clothes and sandals, so I let my clothes and sandals and make ups to be borrow for her date and I gave my make ups to her and lips sticks too. I put make up of her face, and arrange her hair to look her pretty. I do my best to help Mae, because I want Mae to have a better life. Not being a mistress all her life but to be a wife and have a husband called to be her own.
My husband said to me, if Mae no money he will bombom her again and give her some money, but my husband is scared a little bit now because Mae been around with others specially to our foreigner friend too. But I said to my husband please I dont give me the bacteria to transfer of me. Make sure that no bacteria before you touch me or I kiss you. Because its not fair to me if you give me bacteria. Not being fair in my part if I have bacteria from the woman because of my husband cheated on me. I wish I can do the same way but I can not do it. To me, as long as my husband is happy I am happy too. This is why, we have peace and quite living now. My husband open a dollar bank account to me too. Then the other day, I had a car accident, luckily no people hurts. I paid 1100 Can dollar of the damage. I am glad that my husband did not said any bad words. I am so stupid I did not watch on the road and I fix my cat sit, I put cat under the shield and did not watch the road. I learned my lesson now, this is twice happened to me. One is my motor bike, and the 7 days ago is the car. The truth is I am scared a little bit to drive. But I still keep going. Lucky me that my husband very understanding, and he is not upset of me at all. Then he did not asked me for pay him back the money. I am sad too, to loose the money and being on the accident its so hard for me.
Today, my husband and his gf and I met again. Because I took back my dress and sandals that Mae borrowed from me. Then I said to Mae, that I have another foreigner friend looking for a girlfriend too. I wish Mae well and to find her own husband one day. I know she have a hard life, but life is always hard its up to us how to play it.
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