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Heading back on track... I hope

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

I have been very uninvolved with SparkPeople since the last time I blogged which was apparently Sept 30, so about a good 2 months. Alas, in that same period of time, I also quit doing everything that is good for me. I quit walking my dog, quit going to the YMCA, quit trying to eat healthy, quit sleeping regularly, started drinking pop again, and who knows what else. What happened as a result? I got more depressed, more grumpy, and of course gained weight. Any sort of weight loss I had from healthy habits before, I completely reversed and I am now fairly certain that I weigh more than I ever have before.

I've spent this last month at my mother's house, which was good and needed, but feel like that now I am returning to "real" life, and need to start focusing on school and start working again, that my health and fitness needs to become a priority again. I haven't a clue about why when I can see benefits, I can see the pounds going away, I can see my skin looking beautiful, my mood improving, my lack of stomach aches, and all the other benefits, and then I just completely sabotage myself because I feel sad. When I never regret forcing myself to work out, in fact I feel better afterwards.

In the end, my long term goals would to be vegan, drink mostly water, maybe juice occasionally, exercise 5 days a week, walk my dog daily, journal/meditate/quiet time daily, take my vitamins daily, and really just learn to be happy and not let my mood dictate my reality and actions. These goals I have been failing horribly at, even less ambitious ones.

So a much less ambitious goal, but a start is better than none at all is starting Thursday, become a vegetarian. That should be easier than full fledged vegan. Write in my journal daily, even if it is only one sentence. Take my vitamins when I wake up. Walk the dog 3 times a week and go to the gym at least two times. That is all. Not hard right?

I am tired of starting again and again and again, but I suppose it is better than just giving up. Maybe one day I will just not stop and won't have to restart.
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    Break it down into small goals. Instead of trying to make too many changes all at once, implement one a week. Add to your success each week and brush off any shortcomings. You CAN do this! Best of luck to you!
    1936 days ago
    emoticon if you log on SP every day it does help a lot, try it

    1936 days ago
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