Tuesday, November 27, 2012
October 7, 2012....I ran the Twin Cities Marathon. That was 7 weeks ago. Since that time I haven't ran more than 2 miles at a time and have had nothing consistent. I miss it. Initially I was unable to run (for about 4 weeks). I injured my knee and have continued to have issues. But with stretching and home exercises, I think I am ready for something more consistent. I have made a whole list of excuses as to why I haven't been running and frankly, none of the excuses are any good. And the new excuses are weaker and weaker.
Whether my body is ready or not, I have yet to really find out.
But my mind is ready. My heart is ready. My heart misses it.
I miss the way the I feel when I run. I miss the confidence. I miss the strength. I miss the feeling of finishing a good run. I miss the PRIDE of finishing a bad run. I miss the consistency it provided me. I miss the relationship I had with running, always there, always listening.....
I miss it. My heart misses it. My mind misses it.
So, tomorrow, I will run.
I will commit to myself that I will run. To decrease this insane amount of stress I have. To decrease this insane amount of fatness I have. To decrease this insane amount of worry I shoulder. To decrease this insane amount of doubt I have in myself.
I will run to INCREASE this smile on my face.
Tomorrow, I will run.
Tomorrow, I will smile.
And today, I recommit. To me. For me.
Because I deserve it.