Tuesday, November 27, 2012
today has been a huge victory for me. I had a final in my anatomy lab today and while I don't think I got the grade that I really want, I know that I tried my best. The reason that today was such a huge victory is that this is officially the first test since returning back to school in 2010 that I haven't binged and purged my way through as a way of coping with my stress. There have been several times today when I really didn't think that I was going to be able to make it through the day without purging. Luckily I have an amazing coach and some awesome friends that were able to help keep me calm in the last 2 hours before my exam.
so, my streak is very much alive. I just need to stop testing myself to see how committed I am to not purging. I think I've been doing some overeating these last few days as a way to test myself and my resolve. probably not the best of decisions. progress not perfection.