Tuesday, November 27, 2012
So, I'm admitting it. I'm a horrible blogger. I just haven't been able to find the time even though it's me I'm investing in and the time should most certainly be there for "me". Instead of feeling guilty though, I'm going to catch up on the past few months.
I took a new job in April that was supposed to have less travel time for me. Since the job was in London, where I lived, it was going to cut down on 15 hours a week of commute time for me. I never found this added time!!! If anything, I feel like life got a lot more hectic. I spent 1 1/2 hours driving to work each morning and another 1 1/2 hours home at night. It sounds horrible doesn't it? However, I really started to miss my drive time. At least that was me time. I could drink my tea, enjoy the country road scenery, listen to an audio book or a talk show, hear the news. I was grounded and knew what was going on in the world. Now, without this quality time, I feel more hectic.
My new job was also supposed to have less travel in the job itself. Since I've started I've been to Alberta 3 separate times, Vancouver, and call days weekly. I've been in airports more now, than I was in my old job, and there I travelled a lot!
I'm not complaining. I do love my new job. It has just forced me to make life decisions that I wasn't sure I was ready to make.
On the weekend, I just gave up one of my loves. One that changed my life and was a very important three years to my weight loss. Roller derby. I played my last game on Saturday to a large hometown crowd and it was emotional. This sport meant a lot to me; I broke my leg and came back, I became a great skater and a strategic player, and I love my team mates. But, it became time to embrace reality and move on. Travelling with work has forced me to miss many practices and I just felt it wasn't fair for my team mates when I would show up after being away. Plus, my knees were starting to feel it, and in all honesty, it was getting a lot harder to go through a stressful day and work knowing I still had a 3 hour practice yet where I was likely going to get the sh*t kicked out of me (on a good day, I knew I was going to kick the sh*t out of someone else; great stress relief!)
The good news....new beginnings! I have a plan. I am looking forward to having my Mondays and Thursday evenings free to plan things instead of always telling my friends, "can't, I have derby".
Now I can! And I have a new gym membership that I can go to on my schedule, when I want! I can go roller skating on Wednesday nights again because my schedule is open. I can find out if I like Body Combat or Body Pump. Hell, I might even try a new craft/hobby.
What I have learned is closing doors doesn't have to be sad. I can discover new exercise activities and things to try. It's good! I'm going to find balance in my life, and embrace it.
Long story short, I think I'm committing to blogging more!!!!