Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Present your bodies a sacrifice living, holy, acceptable to God." That was the daily text for Tuesday, taken from Romans 12:1. The reference material mentioned the importance of keeping your body clean of all defilement, so as to be able to be acceptable to Jehovah. The examples of such defilement included tobacco, illicit drugs, and alcohol abuse.
These vices are not at all attractive to me. I get sick if I even catch a whiff of tobacco smoke. I have no desire at all to do drugs. Alcohol taste horrid to me. No problem. I'm clean!
Or am I?
The reason people smoke tobacco, do illicit drugs, or drink themselves into a comatose state is because they want to avoid their problems. They want to ease their pain of everyday life. They want to make themselves feel better. They feel these avenues are the only way to achieve this calmness.
So how does this apply to me? Well, what do I do to calm myself? In what ways do I deal with my problems? Judging from the size of my clothing, I use food. A lot of food. By eating till my body is so out of control, I am no better, nor acceptable to Jehovah, than the passed out alcoholic on the street.
Another point brought out in the reference material is that "Jesus, while on earth, stressed the importance of praising Jehovah by preaching the good news." Do I follow this example?
While I do go out in the ministry, I have some serious issues with my body image that have a detrimental effect on Jehovah's message. It causes me to be less confident in my speech and my eye contact with the householder than I used to be. I am not able to be bold in my reasonings, nor in my conversation stopper responses. If I am not confident, the message that I deliver suffers. I don't enjoy going to the door because of how people view obese people. If people see me as someone who is not happy in my life, why would they ever listen to me as I tell them I have found the truth that leads to a better life?
I have tried to do better with my emotions in the last month. I am losing some of my girth. But I still need to do better at discerning why I overeat and overcoming those obstacles, so that Jehovah's word can be heard.
I am an addict, and food is my drug. I need to clean up my life so as to be "acceptable to Jehovah."