Tuesday, November 27, 2012
First off I can't remember the last time i kept track of my food for the day (on paper) i sort of just do it in my head and count carbs trying to stay around 100 or so (give or take) I know ive come a long way since last february weighing 241 now im at 178 size 10 pants and most people say there is no way i look like i weigh that much most people think i weigh around 130 . Then ive gotten my blood sugars down pretty good due to loosing 61 pds and feel overall so much better. BUT..........I dont want to beat myself up just "reflect" and realize what needs to be "tuned up" a bit.....
First off i have weighed 178 for a few mths now so call it a plateau but something tells me its way to long to be a "plateau"
I haven't been writing my food down.
I nibble more in between meals a bite here a bite there and "justify" it by telling myself if i only eat a few carbs in between my sugars won't spike so drastially so its "ok"
Im proud of myself for how far ive come and i think beating myself up is not an option i just want to recognize that im worth completing this journey that it is not over i think i just got "comfortable" i look good and feel like ok i an relax now and not be so rigid, but i think for me, if im not more "structered" I may slip further backwards and im grateful i see this, my health and happiness is too important to go back after all this work.
OH i could i forget i haven't walked in so long either.
So there it is, i layed it all out so i can admit it look at it and move on and start doing what i started out doing.
I deserve this
and i deserve to keep going.
I had a "break" now its time to move ahead.
After all if im not my best friend who will be?
If i dont i will face a future of posssible complications of diabeties right now im prediabetic and have a chance still to reverse this.
So glad i wrote today.
Im done eating today so will recommit tommorow to writing my food again.