Tuesday, November 27, 2012
This is a Christmas sign that we keep in our foyer year round and today as I was picking up the remnants of a fall centerpiece that had been on the small table in the foyer, but eaten by the puppy, I looked up at the sign and sighed. But as I was driving to do some shopping later, I kept going back to that thought and tears welled up in my eyes. I have so much to be thankful for - a beautiful and intelligent daughter who has adjusted to college, a wonderful, caring and hard-working husband, a nice home and now I am retired.
Life was not always this good. My first husband was controlling and verbally abusive. We never had money and his compulsive spending had not only driven us into horrible debt, but I was always expected to juggle things to make ends meet. Go figure. He passed away in 2002 and even though I cared for him in his illness, it took me quite a while to get over the guilt of feeling relieved when I was on my own. I sturggled with the debt, but ws finally able to afford a new and larger home for my 12 year old daughter in a lovely neighborhood.
Even though work had been difficult the last 2 years with a boss who was a bully, I made the best of it as I enjoyed teaching and working with my special needs students.
After swearing I would never remarry, in 2007 I married the most understanding and lovable man I have ever known.
After going through the change, battling thyroid problems and being on an antidepressant for over 12 years now, weight it still the only obstacle I am still facing. Four months of going to the gym 3x a week I have not lost a pound, but have lost inches and body fat. So I will keep plugging along with this.
Yes, it is indeed a wonderful life!