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Rough times

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Sometimes the drama is just too much for me. I am so tired of dealing with it. I can't change, manipulate, or control the situation and that is making everything even harder for me. My step-dad has begun sneaking private documents and information/passwords out of the house. He's also lying about what he's taking out of the house. I am now trying to protect my mom, but that's really hard to do sometimes. He hasn't yet been violent, although that's something that makes me nervous.
I can't just move out because I have my sister to care for, and my mom can't do it alone. He has been absolutely useless for months now. I also can't care for my sister on my own at this point because of my back. But we can't stay in the house where things are the way they are. I've been looking for somewhere for us to live, but things are complicated by the need for wheelchair accessibility and the fact that I have a 90 lb dog. If I have no other choice, my dog can stay with my aunt until I have a place that he could be with me again. I don't want it to come to that. My aunt lives an hour from me so I wouldn't be able to just visit my dog every night. Especially since I started a new job yesterday that is 4 days a week. I'm confused, hurt, and kind of scared. My step-dad can be a cruel person who says mean vile things because he knows that I'm smarter than he is. His response when I am logical/rational is to immediately begin belittling, humiliating, and absolutely awful name calling.
I'm so tired of dealing with everything. I just want things to be decided. I need to know if I'm going to have to move. If I have to move I need to start looking for somewhere that will suit my needs. I need things decided. I don't want to deal with moving. I don't want to the leave street that was named after my sister, but I don't see where I have much choice. I'm also so tired of pretending to be strong for everyone else and that I'm okay with what's happening when I'm really not. I'm ready for things to move on. I need to be able to make decisions and move on.
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    It is so hard to live and deal with dysfunctional human beings, especially mean ones. Sending you love and support. emoticon
    1785 days ago
    I’m sorry to hear you are going through this ordeal. I wish there was something I could do or say to fix it all for you right now. My prayers are with you and your family.
    1786 days ago
    If he's sneaking things out of the house he's hiding something. A guy with nothing to hide could care less if his wife see's his emails and such. And I agree with the others, if he's violent you have to call the police. At the very least talk to a Pastor or counselor to get the assistance you need. You don't have to go through this alone.

    1786 days ago
  • LYNNA1968
    If he has shown violence call the police, I doubt the would ask the 3 of you to leave so he could stay. I'm sorry you are going through so much. Try to stay strong. You have us emoticon emoticon
    1786 days ago
    1786 days ago
  • 1935MARY
    If he is sneaking things out, he is probably is seeing someone or has plans to move out. Has hit anyone? Calling you or anyone names,or belittling anyone is abuse also. If he ever hits or does any violent toward anyone call the police and press charges, once they start hitting they don't quit. Who is in wheel chair? Is it your sister? How does your mother feel about it? I have been in 2 abuses relationships and stayed for all the wrong reasons.
    1786 days ago
  • QUEENREAP12409
    I know how difficult it can be when you are in, what feels like, an impossible situation. Just remember that it isn't impossible, the solution just hasn't shown up yet. You'll get there, and your strength will help carry everyone through.

    Maybe there could be some legal recourse should things get really out of control with your step-dad?
    1786 days ago
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