Well, that's no good.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
I saw something on TV last night that said if you sit on your butt for 5-6 hours a day (desk job anyone?), that 30 minutes of activity won't offset being sedentary that long... so since I have a desk job where I sit over 9 hours a day, what does that mean for me? I'm not only trying to offset the time spent tied to my desk, but I'm unsuccessfully trying to lose weight. Last time I blogged (back in April mind you, 7 months ago!) I was trying to lose 30 pounds... now I'm up to 40.
I know, I know... you're supposed to find ways throughout the day that "sneak" in movement and calorie burn, but I either forget, or don't know what to do. I work in a tiny office by myself (one other person is here off and on throughout the day), there are no stairs to climb, no co-workers to walk to rather than email, no far away printer to print to, no hallways to walk on breaks, and just trying to stand instead of sit is difficult at best because most of what I do is on the computer and I can't type or use the mouse while standing (not well or for very long anyway).
And yet, I feel like those are pathetic excuses and there should be something else I could do. I try to do squats and wall pushups, leg lifts and chair dips... whatever I can think of, but I don't feel like it's doing anything, and I feel weird since I have two big windows facing the road and the business directly across the street. And for some reason I don't think to move around as often as I should. When I'm caught up or the phones are quiet why don't I think "I should get up and stretch or do X"? Should I have an alarm set for every 1-2 hours and have a planned exercise?
Not to mention my husband's new job has him working nights, so I get home and he leaves an hour later... which would be ok if I used the time to work out and be productive. But more often than not I end up on the couch with frequent trips to the kitchen to graze. I know I shouldn't, but then part of me just doesn't care or thinks I'll make up for it later (even though I know I won't). And I just dread working out even if it's something I don't mind. I try to buy my way fit. Between the work out clothes, DVD's, weights, kettlebells, yoga mat... you name it. I bought a new DVD a couple weeks ago and never even opened it. I have an elliptical and a weight machine in the garage, and a treadmill waiting to be retrieved from my MIL's house, but they also go unused. I think instead of a big christmas tree I should wheel the elliptical into the living room instead. Hmm...
So, I guess I'm still searching for that motivation. I don't like how I look with this extra weight, and my clothes don't fit well (or look good), but I keep repeating the same mistakes that are only adding to the problem. Why?? It seems so simple and yet it feels like the hardest thing I've ever done in my life.
I guess that's enough "boo-hooing" for now. I think i'll come up with a list of exercises I can do here at work and keep them visible so maybe I'll think to actually do them.