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OUT OF CONTROL..and then some

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I am definitely feeling the effects of the holidays and not having my Mom. I have made sure to stuff my face all day and all night with crap that I know is horrible for me. Does it make me feel better? Sure..until I need it again and again and again. Sounds like a drug addict and Ronald McDonald is my supplier and when he's out I head for Wendys. Ugh, how disgusting to admit that but I keep rolling on ignoring the disgusting nature of my actions. la la la la...
I am packing weight back on at record pace. Maybe I'll set a record for it, who knows. I have sooo much stress on me right now, my Mom being gone, husband out of work, no money, son's December 16th bday, Christmas... I have to somehow figure out how to get this runaway train back on track before it derails for good.

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WONKYSOX 12/1/2012 12:25PM

    I ma sorry about your mom. I know approximately where you are right now though, just dealing with some different things. The stress you are experiencing is really tough at the moment but you know, things will somehow get together and you will get through. I am here for you!!

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ERINMARIE424 11/27/2012 10:12PM

    I'm so sorry. We lost my boyfriend's dad this spring also and the holidays are difficult. And with all the other stress as well in your life, it must seem like too much. But try to find one small thing to "win" each day - even if it's getting a small cheeseburger instead of a Big Mac, or skipping the fries. It will make you feel good about yourself!

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KOOKYCOOKIE 11/27/2012 11:03AM

    The best thing right now is to take a deep breath and try and focus on the present. Push everything else out of your mind and really focus on the here and now. If you start feeling the urge to go to McDonalds or to eat something unhealthy, try and focus on something else (Mindfulness is a great tool for this). I can't say I understand the stresses you are going through, but I have definitely been at the bottom of a dark pit trying to get out and feeling helpless. Things will get better, it will take a while, but they will get better. The first thing you need to do is take care of yourself and everything else will fall into place.


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SHEENADEE 11/27/2012 10:58AM


I'm sorry to read about how you are struggling. You definitely have a lot of stressors in your life right now. I don't have the magic answer for you; but, wanted to let you know that all us Sparkers can understand what you are going through and wish you all the best.

Remember that your forward progress is a whole series of one small step after another. Maybe it will help if you identify some new goal or motivation and plan a few daily actions that will move you closer to that goal.

You can do this! Hugs and calming thoughts coming your way.

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DSBRIDE 11/27/2012 10:47AM

    I've been missing you and I'm sorry to hear about your Mom. You definately have a lot of stress and with the holidays it just piles on more stress. Take a breathe, slow down and for a minute, just think of yourself. Think of the good things and let your mind take you away to a safe place. Sending lots of prayers and hugs. We're here for you and know what a strong person you are, you will get thru this!

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