Tuesday, November 27, 2012
So, after tracking my food for a couple of weeks and finding myself consistently over calories and under protein, I realize it's time to put the control of what I eat outside of my own self sabotaging head. I have switched to following the Meal Plans provided here on SparkPeople. I just can't do this alone, I always seem to choose fast and easy. Hmmm..seems to be a theme in my life....but anyway I digress.
I have always thought it would be cool if someone just told me what to eat every day and I would just do that. So with that in mind the Meal Plans are perfect. It meant a huge overhaul of what I have in the house and what I need to have in order to follow the plan. And I had to do some tweaking of the plans offerings to fit my dietary restrictions...it accounts for the diabetes, but not the gluten free. But it was kind of fun, because the plan offers substitutions. So I can have some degree of choice without blowing the calories.
I have my groceries delivered to my home and today is the day for all the healthy stuff to arrive and I am excited. I also cleared a big space in my living room so I can use my WiiFit.
Last week was a wash out. With a fibromyalgia flare raging through my body the last thing I wanted to do was watch my food. Although I should have because that might have helped. The sugar cravings were cocaine addict intense! And I realized something. While I haven't had my period since 1997, I think I may still have PMS since I still have ovaries. And there is a pattern...cravings for carbs and sugar skyrocket, fatigue and irritability increase, and my brain is a muddle..even more than it is with a fibro fog....and that lasts about 4 days and then I have a day of peeing every hour or so, and then I am fine. I suspect the peeing is my body letting go of the water retention. Anyway, I am going to track these symptoms and since if they occur once/month. At any rate, this pattern is either hormonal, or fibro related. Who knows.
Trying to get fit and healthy is making me feel sort of selfish. I really have to spend a lot of time thinking about ME and what I am going to eat or do. This is uncomfortable for me. And to be assertive about it is even more uncomfortable, I am a pleaser and I don't like to be a wet blanket, or someone who is a lot of trouble to feed. So, some head work to do here.
(me enjoying my new meal plan meal)