Monday, November 26, 2012
So, tommorrow I will be 14 days from the surgery that will hopefully help me get my life back on track. I am super nervous. I have not been eating very well this past week. I think that in my head I am eating all the things that I will not be able to eat after surgery. Kind of a final good by to the food that I love but makes me miserable. On the flip side of that, I am so terrifie that I am going to gain weight and have my surgeon refuse to do my surgery. He wanted me under 300 pounds and my last and final weight in I was 298. I am really struggling with that. I was 301 this morning. I am scared that I am going to get to the hospital, they are going to weigh me and be like, NO SURGERY FOR YOU!!! HAHAHA!!! If you can't tell, my nerves are starting to kick in. Every single surgery stopping scenario is racing through my mind right about now. Breathe Anna!!!!!