Monday, November 26, 2012
My anxiety has been getting out of control for the last couple of weeks. It is disrupting my life and I am not sure how to reduce it right now. There has been no precipitating event or factors that I can discern. But it sits there like a lump in my chest. I am still walking the dog twice a day, socializing with family, and walking to the library once or twice a week, but that is about it... and the library trips are difficult. It feels like the dog is my security blanket when I leave my apartment. I am seeking professional help with this, and go back on Thursday, but it is discouraging, frustrating, and downright depressing to have to deal with this again. I thought I had it licked! I figure I will find my way through this and come out stronger than ever on the other end, but getting there is painful. I wish personal growth wasn't so often so darn uncomfortable. *sigh*
I did manage to walk 6.4 miles today. Tomorrow my niece comes to walk with me and the dog, which is a nice distraction. I think the weather is supposed to warm up a hair this weekend, which would be nice. The chilly, windy, gray, snowy weather is not helping me get outside as much as I would like. When it gets really cold Cooper doesn't want to walk as far, which reduces my daily mileage. My goals are constantly getting scaled back, but I will get out and walk no matter what.