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God is Good to Me

Monday, November 26, 2012

I went to my specialist today. The Dr. said that he, the radiologist, and pathologist was pretty sure I had some type of cancer or lymphoma this summer. They found nothing at all during their multitude of tests when they removed the lymph nodes in my neck. God has spared me. Praise be to God. He said we likely will never know what caused it. No follow up needed unless I notice any lumps or swellings. He said eventually my smile should return.
I should be dancing in the streets. I am very thankful. I need to take care of this body. God has given me a chance.
My stumbling block is that I'm plain and simply exhausted. I am just a bit overwhelmed with the needs of the people I care for in my job. And of course the paperwork. Help is on the way but it's slow. I have no choice but to give it my all in the meantime. I couldn't live with myself if I didn't. I'm also worried about a close family member. Part of me knows to give my worries to God and move on. The other part of me doesn't have the strength. I come home late about every night. I somehow do what I need to around the house to keep it in order. Lot's of other people need this or that from me too. I can hardly do any of it. Most things just take a few minutes but I just can't seem to do it all. I still feel I can and will meet my health goals. I'm depressed that I haven't gotten further. The support and wisdom hear is phenomenal. I know that not eating healthy or exercising takes up just as much time. But, as I said I'm tired my To Do Lists are too long and I don't see anyway to shorten them for awhile. I feel horrible not taking the care of this wonderful body and life God has given me. I'm usually such a positive person. I don't like myself in this mood. I log on most days but feel I'm just hanging on by a thread. emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
EVER-HOPEFUL 12/2/2012 4:49PM

    thatīs great about the no the other stuff you canīt help others if you havenīt got the energy to help them.what you need to do is pioritise ,include you on that pioroty list.what always helps me is the serenity prayer and when i feel torn all ways i tend to go by the serenity prayer.incase you donīt know it it goes as follows.

god grant me the serenity to accept the things i can not change.
the courage to change the things i can
and the wisdom to know the differance.

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/29/2012 12:04AM

    So glad for the good news from your doctor. The stress of your burdens needs to somehow be lightened and I pray God will show you how to release some of those burdens in a healthy way without putting your job in jeopardy. Shalom!

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COLT2008 11/27/2012 9:08AM

    emoticon so glad you don't have cancer, will pray for healing and energy

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MOMFAN 11/27/2012 1:14AM

    Hugs and prayers!! I so get it. I am trying to catch up on my week off before I go back for data entry. Hopefully it will be short and sweet.

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DJ4HEALTH 11/26/2012 11:22PM

    Glad that you don't have cancer. That is one nasty disease.

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AMYROSEC 11/26/2012 10:15PM

    Great news that you don't have Lymphoma, I had Hodgkins Lymphoma 16 years ago it is horrible to get through. I hope you get help at work soon. I know what it is like to work lomg hours come home exhausted and still have to do the housework. I am praying for you and your close family member. Maybe try to start with 5 minutes of "me time a day if you can. Hang in there emoticon

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TONYVAND1 11/26/2012 9:55PM

  Praying for you.

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KATIEG999 11/26/2012 9:34PM

    Great news!!! I am happy for you!!! I am praying for you and your exhaustion...that sounds really, really hard and I know you will pull through this. emoticon

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YOBOELI 11/26/2012 9:18PM

    That is great news good luck with everything and remember you need "me" time

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