Rebuilding my faith in me. Day 1
Monday, November 26, 2012
I am thankful.. Everyday of my life, every second, I am thankful. Yesterday was my daughters birthday, first birthday. I was full of worries. But everything just worked itself out and I got through it. And she enjoyed herself, danced and laughed. It was like she knew this party was for her. A little lady she is growing into already. But I am beyond thankful for her as well.
At this current moment, I barely have a voice, it hurts but I'm ok. I stepped on the scale 154.4.. I guess not at all that bad with all the emotional eating of cake/pies/cookies for the last 5 days. BUT I'm ok with that. I guess I needed to get it out of my system.
But I'm moving on from that. With the little money or (budget)- because honestly, I need to stop crying broke (change the way I think)..(because I am blessed despite of) but I'm going to get back to eating (clean). No pork until x-mas, and stick to putting myself first. Try to get enough sleep (if possible).
I, vow to take 1 week at a time..
-Work out- Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday-rest on thursday-Dance/reh-weekends
-Drink plenty of water. Start the morning w/ hot water
-1 cheat day during the the weekend--
- blog my food/activity
Father God, I am putting my words to action. I am leaving my troubles and worries in your hand father god. THIS journey is hard, life as you know it is hard as well. BUT with your guidance and your strength father, I know you can build me up. At times, I feel weak and broken but you save me father. You have never let me down. And again I turn to you. Please allow me to stay focus. Focus on completing my goals. Focus on balancing myself. Focus on my family, and focus on my career. I thank you, father, for all that you will do and all that you have done already. GOD you are wonderful, you are amazing. AND I love you. I cry to you, O'Lord, to save me from my troubled mind. I thank you father, I thank you.