Monday, November 26, 2012
Many people put on facebook something they were Thankful for each day. It was fun to watch. It was not something I did. Seemed a bit too much like bragging for me. I don't think that all my friends were bragging but I felt like that is what I would be doing.
I have put on the blogs that I seem to be going back to places I have seemingly been before. I take many side trips that put me in places I thought I had already traveled through. When handled well I remember what I learned before and learn a bit more and move on. Knowing a new skill or idea to get me further on this journey.
Then there is the other times where I look at the place I find myself in and realize that I have been there before. Instead of asking myself why and what I am going to do about it I berate myself for not learning enough when I last found myself there. The negative self talk begins and it can be an ugly downward spiral.
So I am pausing for a moment to remind myself that without me this journey would not happen. I have had several experiences where I nearly died. If that had happened I clearly would not still be here trying to learn. Trying to fight past my demons into the place that I want to be. So I wanted to remind myself my life is pretty good. I will get through these hangups. I have made many choices that make me happy to know that I have made. Many areas in my life are great. I have things that I am working on. I hope to eventually concur the weight issues but, I am sure there will be other areas that I will learn and grow in.
So for today I will remind myself how grateful I am to be on this journey. I will also say that I am grateful to all those who are journeying with me on SP. I hope you appreciate yourself too.