Regardless: O Holy Night (December 5, 2010)
Monday, November 26, 2012
Now, before I get into the actual blog, I’m just going to go ahead and point out how I don’t think things straight. I actually thought I was going to write this out on my phone. I was going to use the WordPress mobile site on my cracked Windows Mobile phone.
Not going to happen. I would have better luck getting a post up using a chisel and a stone tablet.
But I digress.
The other night (Friday), I went to the Barlow Girl Christmas concert. Now, it was one of those nights where every. single. thing that was said was something that has been on my heart/mind during the past few weeks/days. I cried more during that concert than I have during the entire calendar year.
One of the things that really stuck out to me was Becca Barlow’s speech on her favorite Christmas song as a child: “What Child is This?” Now, I started crying during the middle of her speech, so I wasn’t really listening to the whole thing… but she talked about how she wasn’t really sure why she loved the song so much until she got a little older. (This is the point where I started crying… she probably started talking about love and feeling unworthy, s that would explain it).
The weird thing about that happened a little later.
Now, I don’t think I have a favorite childhood Christmas song. If I had to pick, it would probably be Sandi Patti’s “The Gift Goes On” or Evie Tornquist’s “Come on Ring those Bells.” Favorite traditional song? Not a clue. (Though I did have a favorite movie: Veggietales: The Toy that Saved Christmas…I cried when I watched it the other day.)
I think at one point, I fell in love with “Away in a Manger,” but that was probably because I was one of three who got picked to sing the last verse at a Christmas concert at church (I was probably somewhere between the ages of 10 and 12).
Over the past few years, I have fallen in love with “Oh Holy Night.” I have no clue why I fell in love with it. I just assumed it had to do with the music itself. It’s the one song I challenge myself to record a decent version for my Youtube channel every year. Thing is, I don’t typically fall in love with songs for the music. There has to be something within the lyrics.
So, I was definitely pleased when that song was played at the concert. Then, somewhere during the song, Alyssa brought attention to one line in the song:
“‘Til He appeared, and the soul felt its worth.”
Remember how I said I started crying when Becca started talking about love and feeling unworthy, etc? That’s because one of the biggest struggles in my life is accepting my worth/value in Christ. The moment Alyssa pointed out that line, I knew why I loved the song so much. I fell in love with the song right when my struggles with that area really progressed.
Just out of curiosity, I decided to take a look at the full lyrics of the song (I only really know the first verse).
“Chains He shall break
for the slave is our brother
and in His name
all oppression shall cease”
I’m not even sure what to say about that one. There’s just something about those lines that speaks to my heart in a way that I can’t wrap my mind around. All I know is that it’s part of the reason I love the song so much, but I can’t find the words to explain why… at least not in a way that will express how it makes me feel.