I thought I was doing ok. I thought I was like a giving person. I knew I was a bit selfish, but I was thinking that part of me was being worked on. But wow, oh how was I ever wrong. I feel as though I have been apart from the real reason I have been alive for so long, that these deep dark feelings have become part of me. All I know is that I am NOT who or even how I want to be. I didn't know these feelings even exhisted in me. I feel SO ugly inside, I want to cry.

Today is the start of my new beginning. I hand up all this ugly to my creator. Please help me replace my ugly with beautiful....