Sunday, November 25, 2012
Logged into Spark for the first time in a few months today and started checking up on some of the people in my friend feed. To my surprise, someone who I thought definitely had it together has begun struggling and fighting a hard battle against herself. I say that not to imply in any way that she should feel guilty or that I am better than that; merely I took notice of the lesson that we all have our demons to conquer.
So many times in my life I have unfavorably compared myself to people, thinking that if only I had so-and-so's ambition or was as organized as "her," or had "his" willpower, I could overcome my feelings of inadequacy once and for all. If you've ever fallen into that trap as well, you can be sure it is just an illusion.
I used to attend a church where the pastor would tell us that our feelings of inadequacy arose because "we compare our behind the scenes to everyone else's highlight reel." And isn't that so true?
So actually, if my SparkFriend reads this I want to say Thank You for being honest about your struggles. I know it is tough for you but in your uncertainty you are actually inspiring me to be kinder and gentler to myself. I hope you can find similar reasons to give that to yourself - and that goes for anyone who might read this.