Sunday, November 25, 2012
Well, the roommate has retrieved her husband from MI and has relocated to Pueblo. They move into their new house tomorrow.
I've put my treadmill back into the spare room, rearranged the living room, cleaned the bathroom in detail, cleaned the kitchen, and put my bedroom back the way it should be. I'd had to move a lot of stuff into my bedroom, and it ceased to be my "retreat" fairly quickly.
I've missed the "alone." It's not that I didn't like having someone to chat with, but I missed the alone...the not HAVING to talk. I love coming home to my empty house, knowing that no one else will join me later...that I can nap on the couch without being in anyone's way...that I can do laundry whenever, clean whenever, or move furniture whenever.
With Brad it's different. I spent most of yesterday and today up the hill with him, and we literally sat for four hours today and said very little--we were both working on things we needed to do: him writing a newsletter, and me reading a book for school.
I love knowing I can run on the treadmill if I like, when it's convenient for me. Or do yoga in the living room if I feel like it. Or curl up with a book. Or just run out and go to a yoga class whenever I like. It wasn't that having a roommate meant I had to ask permission, but I felt that everything I did required explanation or an invitation to be polite--and I *hate* being watched when I work out. I know I look ridiculous, no need for anyone to point it out.
I spread out all my school stuff the other day and started to plan. It felt GOOD to have my crap all over my coffee table. I sat on the OTHER end of the couch for once. I took a nap and watched Judge Judy. I went for a walk. I ran out to the store. All because I felt like it.
Some things I noticed as I was laying in bed last night. My back doesn't hurt. Neither does my neck. The numbness I had in my arm and index finger for two months? Gone. Sure the acupuncture helped--that's what started the pain going away. I think though, knowing that my roomie was LEAVING soon made a huge difference. I know that I will still keep going for acupuncture though--it's a matter of general wellness. She's worth it--it was like...therapy, talking it all out and not being judged....and having someone understand why I felt the way I did and help me to see that yeah, emotions and stress DO cause physical issues with the body.
Happy tonight...just...happy and content.