When you lose...
Sunday, November 25, 2012
This time of year is hard...
Being on SP and reading the blog title, it would be easy to assume that this is about weight loss. I write this not to provide 'words of wisdom' but more for my own therapeutic processing. This time of year, I have not forgotten all of the things that I have in life to be thankful for but it doesn't change the fact that it's still hard.
Last year, I lost my beautiful and healthy 14 year old cousin to sudden cardiac arrest. She died within minutes. SCA was triggered by a genetic heart ailment, LQTS (Long QT Syndrome) that we didn't know she had. Celebrating the holidays is difficult to say the least, but we do the best we can. There are good days, there are bad days. One way of knowing there's progression in the mourning process is realizing there are more good moments in a day then bad. In finding the good...we have chosen to celebrate her life and started a foundation to raise awareness of genetic heart ailments in children and raise money for college scholarships. She was amazing in everything she did, accomplished, set her mind to and she touched so many lives around the world....celebrate we must!!!
(Below) Sabrina, 14 years old
As our family has stumbled through the first year of her passing and as we talk about her, it's a toss up if we are able to get through it with smiles and laughter or hysterical sobs...but we muster through.
I have learned that crying doesn't make me weak and laughter and smiles doesn't mean I've forgotten. I feel so truly honored to have known her, even of only for 14 years. She has made me a better person.
I love and miss you Sabrina