I got a summons for jury duty. My number was pretty high, so I was hoping that I would at least get excused for Monday. No such luck!
I don't mind doing my civic duty at all and I've done it twice before, but I am supposed to be a guest speaker for a class on Monday and I am so worried that I won't be able to get there or whether I'm going to find a place to park for the class and for jury duty downtown, whether they are going to take my cell phone away so I won't be able to contact the instructor to let her know, etc. I probably should have asked the instructor if we could reschedule the class for next week, but I was so sure I wouldn't have to actually go that I gave her a half hearted FYI about it just before Thanksgiving and told her I should have no problem getting there. I guess she went out of town because I haven't heard from her and I'm unclear about what to do in case I need a plan B.
This rant above just shows the amount of time I spend worrying about what MIGHT happen and worrying about things I cannot do anything about. This is so frustrating. I am a big girl (in more ways than one!) so I am sure I can figure all of this out.
The ironic thing is that while I'm winding myself up with worry, I am listening to Spark Radio and they just happen to be talking about how stress can affect your metabolism by putting you in panic mode. This is so incredibly relevant for me right now! So, I am taking deep breaths and trying to catch myself when I start to go to that dark place.