Sunday, November 25, 2012
Seems I have given up on a lot of things that I love as of late. Not only am I not writing as much as I used to, but I am also the heaviest I have ever been in my life. My new job takes a lot out of me emotionally, which in turns makes me so tired I have little energy to do the things I love: writing, playing games, reading. I manage to get my homework done during my lunch breaks and on the weekends, but as for having enough energy to hop on my new exercise bike or coming up with a fun witty article for my website I've lost it. Yesterday I found out that I could possibly have a very serious condition in my eyes and have been referred to a specialist to find out if it is weight related or genetics. I have to lose weight. I've been reading about lapband, but it seems awfully invasive and kind of scary. This is depressing. I don't see me in the mirror anymore and I certainly don't feel pretty anymore. I'm going to try to commit to SparkPeople once again and see if I can actually follow through with this without being too busy or too tired to login and track my eating and exercise. Wish me luck.