Sunday, November 25, 2012
So I have been AWOL for the past month, because of crazy work hours- 80 hrs/wk, switching from nights to days, back to nights, and then back to days- that really screws up a person. And if that's not enough, throw in the stress of really sick children in the ICU, some sad outcomes, and feeling like I will never have enough knowledge. On the total 4 days off I had in the past month, I pretty much just tried to catch up on sleep.
And then my schedule changed- I have wonderful, glorious clinic hours for the next few weeks AND I got the ENTIRE thanksgiving weekend off. I had intended to restart JM's BR program last Monday when my work hours changed, but instead I kept putting it off until the next day and the next day.... but I guess that's what happens when I'm exhausted and haven't had a day off in 2 weeks.
And then Thanksgiving came. And I ate lots of food. And then continued to eat and lay around watching tv. I had lots of good intentions, but none of them were acted upon.
Today I was laying on the couch, I had bought healthy food to batch cook in the slow cooker today, so I knew I had to get off my lazy butt eventually. I am very unhappy with my weight gain over this past month. Something about wearing scrubs every day that just puts me in a state of denial. So I had a pep talk with myself in my head- nothing is magically going to change if I don't so something about it. My belly fat is not going to disappear by wishing it off. I'm now winded when I walk up a single flight of stairs.... and that makes me miserable. And it's not going to change on its own. I'm having those all too familiar back pains b/c I'm too fat. My pants are tight, and there are very few outfits in my closet that hide the fat rolls enough for me to feel good in them.
So I gotta do something about it.
I did work out 1 week 1 of JM's BR today.
And I plan to continue.