Sunday, November 25, 2012
Well, I totally dropped the ball there for a month or two, but I'm back on track now. What is unfortunate is that I'm starting again when a) it's really cold out so I hate going outside for walks, and b) there are a bunch of food-filled holiday parties coming up in the next month. The first problem I'm confident I can solve by making myself a cute hat/scarf/mitten combo so I'll want to show them off on daily walks, but the second will probably cause some stress.
I spent Thanksgiving at my grandmother's house with my family, and I surprisingly stayed within my calorie goals. I didn't deprive myself, just ate smaller portions and didn't mindlessly snack on things. I am happy with myself for that, but the thought of staying in control for at least 4 more big get-togethers is a bit daunting.
My mom's side of the family is fairly easy to handle, since the only thing they pester me about is work/school. My dad's extended family is much different. Most of them are big (both taller and heavier) and loud, while I am short and very shy, so I feel uncomfortable right off the bat. Plus, all my aunts like to talk about people's weight and romantic prospects and kids, and I feel like I just don't measure up in their minds to the rest of my cousins, who are mostly all either married with kids or have been dating someone for a while. Even my little sister is bringing her boyfriend.
I, on the other hand, have never brought anyone or mentioned dating anyone seriously, and if they notice that I've been losing weight, I fear the comments, even if they are well-meant. I'm positive they'll all be something along the lines of complimenting me on trying to make myself prettier to attract boys. Maybe I don't care about attracting boys; maybe I just want to be healthier and feel better about myself; maybe none of it is their business. Hopefully I can plan ahead, eat a healthy amount of food, avoid the annoying relatives, and enjoy being with the rest of my family during the holidays.
I know that no-one means any harm, and I'll try to remember that I am lucky to have such a large family and somewhere to go during the holidays, when so many people have much less or nothing. I'm pretty privileged, considering, and I'll try to keep that in mind and stay positive.