Sunday, November 25, 2012
I'm getting mixed signals from my husband over my weight loss.
On one hand, he can't keep his hands off of me and it's quite obvious (if you catch my drift) that he is pleased with my weight loss and the way I look. I get compliments and comments from him often.
On the other hand, I'm convinced that he is trying to sabotage me. I know that sounds strange and confusing, but it IS strange and confusing.
He knows my triggers, and he knows how vulnerable they make me.
So why does he keep making popcorn and asking me if I want some? And when I say "no," why does he put the giant bowl of popcorn in my lap while we're sitting on the couch?
Why is there a half a gallon of Blue Bell Coffee Ice Cream in the freezer? (you wouldn't believe how much of it I ate last night!!!!)
Why does he keep asking me if I want to go to Mexican Food?
I'm sure there are a number of things going on here. He's significantly older than I am, so he might be a bit insecure as I shrink. He might feel more "safe" (subconsciously) if I have extra poundage.
I think we had a lot of fun when I was getting high on margaritas several times per week and binging on candy and ice cream. He might miss that to some degree. But I definitely can't get back into that cycle.
After my coffee ice cream binge last night, I woke up remorseful and he almost seemed happy! He said, "Well, I know what to do if you lose too much weight. Buy some Coffee Ice Cream."
I guess I'll have a talk with him in a bit.