Sunday, November 25, 2012
I have to keep my life kinda low-key to help prevent the mood-swings that come with my bipolar disorder. Keeping stress away is challenging, but I've become quite good at it. I have to consider the stress factor whenever I start anything new in my schedule.
I've been contemplating what I should do differently with my time, since I'm feeling some periods of boredom. I feel like so much time and energy is focused on food and exercise. I work 9 hours a week and spend one morning a week with my daughter and her kids. I go to church on Sunday mornings and I spend an hour journaling every day. Maybe a half hour Sparking each day, too. 5-7 hours of exercise a week as well. I read for 3 hours a day on average. I love to read.
I'd been considering signing up for a clay studio class. I used to throw on the wheel, and would like to do that again. My only problem is I end up with lots of pots, cups, and plates with few people to give them to. Where do you store such things?
OR I love learning and my husband often encourages me to take classes at the local U. I've done classes recently and discovered that 2 classes at a time works for me. When I did 3 classes plus a lab, I was overtaxed. Problem is, I don't have any goal to shoot for in taking classes. (no ideas on a degree or second career...I'm a career Mom...what should I do NOW?)
I also have the beginnings of a book about my struggles with bipolar and BPD (borderline personality disorder). Bipolar tends to run in families and I want to have an account available for future family members who may need some encouragement and insight into the disorder. I want to give them hope.
Life is too short to be spending so much of my mental energy on food and my body. I will always have weight as a concern, I'm finding out that maintaining takes as much striving as weight loss does. But I don't just want to finish my life with the legacy of a healthy body. Isn't life more than the body?
I kinda am leaning toward the option of writing for a while. Now I just need to figure out how much time I want to devote to writing each day. I believe this will give me focus and keep my interest a while each day...enough to help with my boredom.
Thank you for listening to me while I sort this all out. Writing helps me think. And in writing this down I can see that writing about my bipolar experiences might be an important thing for me to do.