Sunday, November 25, 2012
Where have I been? Gracious I could write a 10 page blog on where I've been; giving you much more information that you could ever want or need!
To put it in a nutshell I've been pretty sick. It's been a rough summer full of doctors and tests and medications. I finally came through with a handful of diagnoses including Ankylosing Spondilytis (a form of arthritis in my hips, back and legs); Scoliosis; Anemia and a severe Vitamin D deficiency. Between the various illnesses (i've also battled hypothyroidism for years) and the medications they've had me on, it's been a miracle every day just to wake up, get out of bed and get to work. To do anything more than that took more effort than I had. I would come home from work and go to bed; weekends and holidays were spent in bed. All I wanted to do is sleep. Finally I decided to take matters into my own hands and make some adjustments to my medication. It seems to be working. I'm still tired quite a bit and would prefer to sleep than do just about anything else; but I'm now able (most days) to dig down inside me and pull out what I need to get me through the day.
Being able to tackle that task has given me the strength to believe that if I begin to exercise again; if I begin to eat right again.....that will do nothing but continue to give me strength and each day will be a step forward and a step stronger. It won't happen overnight but history has taught me that it WILL happen!
Finally, in 3 months I will turn 50. I have no idea how I got here but it's a daunting number. Combined with the fact that any day now I'll become a first time grandma, I know it's time to stop existing and start living. I can only do that by taking charge of my nutrition and my fitness. No one can control it but me. I know that I can do it. I've done it in the past. I will do it again.
My numbers goal is simple: 25 pounds gone by February 25th. Easily within reach. The only thing that would stop me is me and I refuse to let that happen.
With that goal will come inches lost and strength gained. I will no longer be a slave to food but will once again see it as fuel for good health and long life. It's neither my friend nor my comforter. It's simply a tool to keep me healthy and alive.
I will build muscle and reduce fat. My arteries will become healthier; my blood pressure numbers will decrease and I will no longer care that I am 50 and a grandma because I will be strong; I will be healthy and I will carry myself with the confidence of a fit, healthy woman! Neither age nor weight will define me.
Writing it is easy; believing it is easy; achieving it will a challenge every single day. But hey....what is life without a few challenges?
Are you up for it you ?