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Honoring My Aunt Elouise & Aunt Louise

Saturday, November 24, 2012

I never had a real mother growing up, but I did have 2 very special Aunts who loved me. After my mother died 25 years ago, they stepped up even more to be my mother. They were both the best mothers I could ever wish for. I was so lucky to have them in my life, even if they were hundred miles away from me. I constantly talked to them over the phone. We flew them both out for my wedding to my 2nd husband, Aunt Louise made my wedding dress and that meant everything to me.

Aunt Louise died March of 2004 almost 8 years ago. Watching her slowly die a harsh death all because of smoking most of her life was horrible. I could not do anything to help either. She lived in Louisiana and me in California, all I could do is tell her every day how much I loved her over the phone.

Now almost 8 years later, her identical twin is going through the same thing. I have called her 3 or more times a day till she could no longer talk, and even then, I would have her husband put the phone up to her hear and she would grunt, hearing my voice. I would tell her that I loved her so much. I thanked her for loving me and for being the perfect mother I could ever want.

She is in her last cycle of life. Comatose, barely here in her old body. As much as I would love to keep her here, it is worse seeing her suffer, every day trying to just breathe. COPD is a horrible thing to die a slow death from. A constant battle for every single breath.

Auntie and me in 2009.

So take time to tell those you love just how much they mean to you. You never know if it is the last time you will see them.

These 2 women has made a huge impact on my life. They filled a hole in my heart that was from my own mother.

Aunt Elouise, it is ok for you to let go, to go home to where your own special mother and sister awaits you. You have been my angel here on earth and it is time for you to get your wings you so deserve. I am bawling as I write this.

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU and one day we will be together again.

Bless you, bless your entrance into Heaven, hug my mama, sister, grandmother and Auntie for me......

it is going to be hard without having you here with me, but I will have another angel on my shoulder.

Please give me the strength to let go and heal this huge pain in my heart....

She passed while I was writing this blog...........
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    Dearest Jetta,

    My heart hurt and tears flowed as I felt you through your words. How wonderful to have had 2 surrogate mothers but oh so unselfish and brave of you to let them go so they can go to a place where they will not be suffering anymore and will act as your guides and await your reunion with them.

    Thank you for the reminder to embrace those we love and tell them now how we feel and show them today never taking each other for granted. Having lost father, brother, husband death sometimes seems kinder than life. I hope I am able to be as brave as you. I am always there for you if you need me.

    Sending Healing Light and Love and hundreds of blessings
    1776 days ago
  • PATTYR81
    The mom part of my life story is very much parallel to yours~ you are luckier in that you had 2 special aunties.

    My beloved aunt also just passed Nov. 13 after battling many serious health issues, among which were lung & breast cancer. She was on an oxygen tank for the past few years and breathing was tough for her also. I'm sorry to say that she suffered terribly in the end. emoticon

    I am also glad she is with God and her loving family. No more suffering and at peace. I'm sad that I can't pick up the phone and hear her cheery voice or open my mailbox to find a surprise from her. (I live in CA and she lived in PA)

    THANKS for sharing!
    1787 days ago
    Your blog is sad, but it has so much compassion in it. You were, indeed, very fortunate to have aunts who stepped up when your mother passed. You have a great deal of positives to remember about both aunts. emoticon emoticon
    1788 days ago
    Jetta it was a joy sharing your story.
    1789 days ago
    sorry for your loss emoticon
    1789 days ago
    I am so sorry for this sorrow of having to let go of someone so dear to you. I went through this with my mother. It is so hard. All my love to you!
    1790 days ago
    I am so sorry. CJ
    1790 days ago
    She heard you, Jetta....think how happy she is be happy for her, take a deep breath and just, well, hurts, but you will see her soon enough, when it's your turn.
    We all hope this is a very long time from now, as we all Love you, returning the Love you send to all of us....

    I send healing Love & energy to you to try & gt you through...from my heart to yours, dearest Jetta....I Love you....Have a little drink and salute her, and say goodbye in a small ritual....

    Sylvia XOXO


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    LOVE YA !!!!!!!

    1790 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/24/2012 7:44:45 PM
    What a beautiful and touching blog.
    1790 days ago
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