I never had a real mother growing up, but I did have 2 very special Aunts who loved me. After my mother died 25 years ago, they stepped up even more to be my mother. They were both the best mothers I could ever wish for. I was so lucky to have them in my life, even if they were hundred miles away from me. I constantly talked to them over the phone. We flew them both out for my wedding to my 2nd husband, Aunt Louise made my wedding dress and that meant everything to me.
Aunt Louise died March of 2004 almost 8 years ago. Watching her slowly die a harsh death all because of smoking most of her life was horrible. I could not do anything to help either. She lived in Louisiana and me in California, all I could do is tell her every day how much I loved her over the phone.
Now almost 8 years later, her identical twin is going through the same thing. I have called her 3 or more times a day till she could no longer talk, and even then, I would have her husband put the phone up to her hear and she would grunt, hearing my voice. I would tell her that I loved her so much. I thanked her for loving me and for being the perfect mother I could ever want.
She is in her last cycle of life. Comatose, barely here in her old body. As much as I would love to keep her here, it is worse seeing her suffer, every day trying to just breathe. COPD is a horrible thing to die a slow death from. A constant battle for every single breath.
Auntie and me in 2009.
So take time to tell those you love just how much they mean to you. You never know if it is the last time you will see them.
These 2 women has made a huge impact on my life. They filled a hole in my heart that was from my own mother.
Aunt Elouise, it is ok for you to let go, to go home to where your own special mother and sister awaits you. You have been my angel here on earth and it is time for you to get your wings you so deserve. I am bawling as I write this.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU and one day we will be together again.
Bless you, bless your entrance into Heaven, hug my mama, sister, grandmother and Auntie for me......
it is going to be hard without having you here with me, but I will have another angel on my shoulder.
Please give me the strength to let go and heal this huge pain in my heart....
She passed while I was writing this blog...........