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Saturday, November 24, 2012

I'll admit it...I'm jealous of all my friends who rush to be in pictures. Most of them look great in pictures so why not? I, on the other hand, look for a place to hide when I see people whipping out their cameras or phones. Occasionally I get cornered by family or friends and have no choice but to submit to the Dreaded Photo and I'm rarely ok with the results. It was some recent photographs that made me realize that I really do need to lose weight. I don't really "see" myself as an obese person until I see it in a picture. A really difficult moment came when my own husband didn't recognize me in a picture. To be clear, it was a profile picture....the very worst kind but still, for him to not recognize me was quite a blow. It was a truly awful picture, no doubt about it. I kinda wanted to punch whoever took the picture right in the nose. Seriously, what were they thinking when they let the picture go public?

But....the real blame goes to me. How did I let myself get to this point? So unhealthy and not looking anywhere close to my best. I can crawl in a closet and hide every time someone pulls out their camera or I can do things to make myself comfortable in front of the camera. I would really like the family album to contain some nice pictures of me for my own vanity as well as to remembered for myself, doing things I love with people I love...not just being overweight.

Here's hoping next year's pictures are a heck of a lot better than this year's!!
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MARYANNGI 11/25/2012 9:39AM

    At least LADYFROMTHEWOOD is posting her pics. I am still so self-conscious but I am working on it. Spark People has helped learn things about myself, my lifestyle and why I stress eat at times.

Just going to the gym is a tough one. I actually try to go to the gym when now one else is there, but that never seems to work. I can be there 5 minutes and all of a sudden there are other people there. But I keep on working out. I started slow and worked out to where I am now. It isn't easy, not like putting on the weight I lost, but I am losing. I have lost 26.8 pounds so far, but I am getting there.

Just remember, baby steps will get you there.

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JUDYAMK 11/25/2012 12:27AM

    Okay so what are you going to do about it???? I could have screamed today at the beauticians. she gave me a big mirror so I could look at my knew style & hair color, the first thing I noticed was my FAT rounded face. I came home & my husband said he liked my hair. I barely mumbled thanks. I have thunder thighs a protruding stomach & I finally admitted the dryer did not shrink them. So then we went to visit family & I looked at a wedding album, & wished I was the woman in the picture that was once me, in just a few short years I let myself turn into a fat blob, I cannot get mad at everyone else because they look so great it is me that did this me & my laziness with my self.If you would have told me years ago I would let myself go I would have never believed it. I took pride in how I looked.Nothing was out of place with me. I felt on top of the world with my body. Now I knocked myself down from the pedestal. I am glad I came across your blog I cannot stand myself in this condition. I met someone today that was once heavy you should see here now. With your blog, & seeing her at this very moment in time has thrown me into a mode of getting back to where I was, thank you for posting.
Judy

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 11/24/2012 10:40PM

    Been there too. So far, I'm only posting my decent looking pics on SP, but I have LOTS of my "before" pics to share when the day comes that I can say "this is what I USED TO look like." Use the old pic to motivate yourself. Get mad and get on sparking! You will take your body back for yourself and you DESERVE to look like the person you see in your mind instead of the one you saw in the picture.
I believe in you.
~ t.

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