Saturday, November 24, 2012
I'll admit it...I'm jealous of all my friends who rush to be in pictures. Most of them look great in pictures so why not? I, on the other hand, look for a place to hide when I see people whipping out their cameras or phones. Occasionally I get cornered by family or friends and have no choice but to submit to the Dreaded Photo and I'm rarely ok with the results. It was some recent photographs that made me realize that I really do need to lose weight. I don't really "see" myself as an obese person until I see it in a picture. A really difficult moment came when my own husband didn't recognize me in a picture. To be clear, it was a profile picture....the very worst kind but still, for him to not recognize me was quite a blow. It was a truly awful picture, no doubt about it. I kinda wanted to punch whoever took the picture right in the nose. Seriously, what were they thinking when they let the picture go public?
But....the real blame goes to me. How did I let myself get to this point? So unhealthy and not looking anywhere close to my best. I can crawl in a closet and hide every time someone pulls out their camera or I can do things to make myself comfortable in front of the camera. I would really like the family album to contain some nice pictures of me for my own vanity as well as to remembered for myself, doing things I love with people I love...not just being overweight.
Here's hoping next year's pictures are a heck of a lot better than this year's!!