Saturday, November 24, 2012
"Today, visualize yourself walking along a beach, wearing a bathing suit and feeling zero discomfort or shyness about showing off your body that you've worked so hard for. Your confidence is high, and you're not even thinking about your body; you're simply enjoying the moment."
This was next to impossible for me today. I really have no idea what it is like to not be conscious of myself when I am in public. I cannot think of a time when I wasn't. I tried. I remember as far back as grade school being self-conscious of my body not measuring up to whatever standard had been programmed into me.
I would like to change that but so far today's assignment will remain in the "someday" category. If anyone has been successful at this visualization, I would like to hear about it. What does that feel like to not be distracted from the good time you could be having by body-conscious thoughts about wether or not your rolls are showing? Just thinking about wearing a suit in public makes me pull in my stomach!
I even suck in my stomach when I am home by myself because it has become such a habit. It takes me awhile to fully relax when I lie down to go to sleep because I catch myself sucking in my stomach. When the yoga teacher tells me to pull in my stomach, I am already there! My body consciousness is worse around women than men, too. What's that about?
I have found something else to tell that girl in the mirror. "Life is moving too fast for everyone else to be concerned with thoughts about what you look like! Relax. Let yourself relax in front of others. Be yourself, and love yourself."