Friday, November 23, 2012
I've been away from SP for about two months. Had some really bad moments and got really down on myself. Threw away a lot of hard work; threw away a lot of really good results. Have had the constant support of my fiance and have slowly risen from the depression I was in. Have realized that I cannot weight myself every day or even every week. Will have to rely on how my body feels and how my clothes fit and weigh myself once a month.
I'm still soda-free. I've had more cheese-block binges in the past two months than I care to remember, but haven't had a cheese-binge for about two weeks. I'm back to drinking 2-4 bottles of water a day. And I'm back exercising.
I have to force myself get ready and go to the gym. I don't want to, I never want to. But I know I have to. And I feel so good after I'm done, but the very next day - even when I remember how good I feel - I have to force myself to go.
I know what I have to do: healthy choices, portion control, cardio and strength training. And I've got to work my core every single day if I want to fit into my wedding dress.
I hope I can stick with it this time. I hope I can have the self-control and willpower it takes to succeed. I really hope I don't spiral out of control again. I'm happy to be back and to see all my old friends and so many new faces.