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The day after

Friday, November 23, 2012

I had an amazing day yesterday with my family. (hope you did too !). But to be honest I ate horrible. After getting on the scale this morning I am quickly realizing that it would take me no time to gain a large amount of weight back.

Oh why can't this journey be easy?!?!

Because nothing worth having or doing is.

I had a dream last night that I went in the bathroom and my face was huge! Like in one of my before pics. It looked like I had been stung by a swarm of bees, I just kept rubbing my cheeks looking in the mirror. I know why I dreamed this...it's been on my mind for a while. Just not from yesterday but because of the last 6 months.

I can't do this anymore.

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  • v BOOKWORM27S
    I've had the same experience. The fear of re-gaining all the weight never goes away. And sometimes that can be a good thing, it helps us stay on track.
    1272 days ago
  • v NETGYRL
    Hey Girl! I am having a heck of a time myself. Just maintaining is hard so you are still kicking some ass even if you are not losing. I have gained 30 lbs back and talk about beating yourself up! I have decided that I am just going to take it one day at time (an old trope but a good one) and try not to stress out about the future and focus on the choices I make right now. Sending you the good vibes. I hope we can both find our mojo again (and soon!). :) /hugs
    1281 days ago
  • v KTISFOCUSED
    Don't second guess yourself. You have come so far and you are amazing. We all got a little derailed with the holiday but one or two days will not undo all that you've done. You are an inspiration to many. You go, girl!!!
    1282 days ago
  • v ILOVEMALI
    isn't this a difficult time of year? My dreams are getting stranger and stranger, and my determination less and less. Let's help each other get through this! emoticon emoticon
    1283 days ago
  • v TMW54812
    Every day is the first day of the rest of your life...choose to live it healthy and fully!
    1283 days ago
  • v FRANCES-AGAPE
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    Dear Michelle, I feel your pain
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    TODAY I over ate even MORE than yesterday

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    WHY are we sometimes our own worst enemy !??!


    Let's try to Have a Wonderful Weekend

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    BLESSINGS!
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    1284 days ago
  • v WINNIE1978
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    1284 days ago
  • v KARENCRANER
    Oh, my! You have so many wise Sparkbuds with awesome words of comfort and advice! You are truly blessed! emoticon
    1284 days ago
  • v KIBAISREADY
    YES GIRL IT'S SO STRIKING HOW EASY IT IS TO GAIN THAN LOSE. I HATE THAT TOO. I HAD AN AMAZING THANKSGIVING AS WELL AND INDULGE AS WELL. GUILT FREE SINCE I ALREADY GAVE MYSELF GUILT FREE HOLIDAY EATING. SO BACK AT IT.
    1284 days ago
  • v TANYA602
    I marvel at the changes we go thru -the ups and downs, the easy days, and the hard ones. You had one of "those days" and you are worth the work that it takes to keep the weight off and live a long and healthy/happy life. It is crazy how the pounds can creep back on, but think of how marvelous you feel when you are down a pound or two. I also gained a few pounds just this past week alone. So I knew I needed to get in a different type of workout (strength training rather than the usual elliptical) and be careful with the calories and the food choices (even more important than the calories sometimes). If I was there I'd take you by the bootstraps and drag you outside for a walk. We both can do this. Shake off the dream and look at the you you are today. You are beautiful, and it didn't come easy. Good things never do.
    1284 days ago
  • v KOSMOS11
    Just remember: you accomplished a lot, you look and feel different. no one can take this away from you. You did it, not someone else, believe in yourself. Yes, it is harder to push now, because you look much better now an we tend to accept this and relax a bit. Try to make down rules for yourself, that will help you. Something like: I will have 2 snacks today and that's it. And if something happens and you have not 2, but close to 22 snacks (lol, yes, it happens sometimes), then change up your dinner for today. Or add 20 min to your workout. Or both. when you will be working out for 20 min longer, it might make you to think: was it really worth standing at the pantry dipping pretzels in Nutella???? emoticon
    1284 days ago
  • v KOSMOS11
    Just remember: you accomplished a lot, you look and feel different. no one can take this away from you. You did it, not someone else, believe in yourself. Yes, it is harder to push now, because you look much better now an we tend to accept this and relax a bit. Try to make down rules for yourself, that will help you. Something like: I will have 2 snacks today and that's it. And if something happens and you have not 2, but close to 22 snacks (lol, yes, it happens sometimes), then change up your dinner for today. Or add 20 min to your workout. Or both. when you will be working out for 20 min longer, it might make you to think: was it really worth standing at the pantry dipping pretzels in Nutella???? emoticon
    1284 days ago
  • v BARBARAROSE54
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  • v EVER-HOPEFUL
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  • v LADYJ6942
    Strange dream. Keep on pushin you can go it,looking GREAT!!!
    1284 days ago
  • v SLIMMERJESSE
    I spared myself the scale this morning and will await my weekly weigh-in next weekend. This will allow me 7 or 8 days to be a good girl again.
    1284 days ago
  • v SUNRISE14
    I understand what your saying. I been slipping to ! Time to get back on track my friend! emoticon
    1284 days ago
  • v SARAHJ19
    So glad you had an amazing thanksgiving! We did too! I ate a little bit of everything and am happy about all my choices. Yes they were bad, but honestly do we always eat sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, turkey with gravy everyday?!?!?! NO! It is one day, it is ok!!!! Remember you did not gain all the weight over one meal or one day. Today is a new day!
    1284 days ago
  • v MAGGIE101857
    Today is a new day! Let's get it started!
    1284 days ago
  • v NANCYPAT1
    No, you can't do this NONSENSE any more. That was NOT real. EVEN YESTERDAY was NOT real. It happened but look back and see if MAYBE there was SOMETHING you did RIGHT and that made the day better than it might have been in the past. Don't start all over beating yourself up and deciding it is TOO HARD. The reality is that YOU CAN DO IT and you are still a wonderful, precious person who deserves to be ALLOWED TO BE HUMAN. Start now, thinking of how you are going to do EVEN better than you did yesterday when faced with even more holiday temptations. YOU CAN DO IT.
    1284 days ago
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