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Thursday, November 22, 2012

emoticon I did not start to really gain weight until my 7th grade year. This is when I started to become less active and my family had once again moved. It is always hard and difficult to move especially when you are younger. emoticon As I got older and got out of high school I gained more weight, hung out with the wrong crowd, and started drinking and smoking. The older I got the heavier I got. The more disappointments I had, the more I ate -I have always been an emotional eater so my mood has always dictated what and how much I eat. emoticon When I joined sparks a few years ago, that is when I realized that I was an emotional eater.
I have been on numerous diets, weight watchers, etc. I would lose 30 pounds only to gain it back and then some. It got to the point that no matter what I did or how much I exercised I could not lose weight. emoticon
Then came the knee injury this year - I thought that it would be simple back to work within a month. NINE months later I am not only at the highest weight I have been in my entire life but I CAN NOT EXERCISE due to same. About 1 1/2 months ago I think reached the lowest point in my life. I was overweight, depressed, and . felt as worthless as I have ever felt. As a christian that is pretty hard to admit and having the thoughts that I had I felt like a split person. I did not want to go to my pastor or his wife who are like my best friends - I was afraid of what they would think of me. .
I have always been harder on myself than others. So at this point I started really doing some soul searching. I started searching out about schools and found a niche where I will be able to work whether or not I can get around. I really feel that God is leading me to get my masters degree in forensic psychology and I will begin that difficult journey in December. emoticon
I also found that once I had found this my depression decided to lighten up. I had something to focus on - do not get me wrong - I have 4 beautiful kids who are all in high school and I love them very much BUT even they could not help me. They are what kept me going and still believing. emoticon
emoticon God led me to that so then I started to really listen - what else do you have or want me to do? emoticon I realized that God wanted me to get control of myself and my body. I started noticing a bunch of Facebook ads for various weight loss products. emoticon emoticon Wow!!! There are sooo many but I decided to look, research and pray about it. I felt God leading me to the IT WorKs! program. I started it about 1 week ago and I have already lost 18 inches and going!!! I am feeling better and looking up.
God always has a reason even if we do not understand. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Have you heard of chair exercise? There are things that you can do without using your knee. I don't really know to what extent your injuries are/were. But there is a lady (Indygirl is her screen name) who was bedridden, and was able to start exercising in this way. She has lost over 200 pounds. Obviously not overnight - but she has stuck with the stuff over the long haul. You might want to check her page out.
    Here is her page:
    >Looks like you are on the right track though and are seeing some progress. Just emoticon and never give up!
    1827 days ago
    Wow, you really know how to take control and figure out what you can do and set about doing it! WTG! I am glad you worked your way through this tough time and have a plan. Faith can keep us going when we have no clue what else to do. You have strength and courage and are on your way to a new life. Yay you!
    1828 days ago
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