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Thursday, November 22, 2012

emoticon I did not start to really gain weight until my 7th grade year. This is when I started to become less active and my family had once again moved. It is always hard and difficult to move especially when you are younger. emoticon As I got older and got out of high school I gained more weight, hung out with the wrong crowd, and started drinking and smoking. The older I got the heavier I got. The more disappointments I had, the more I ate -I have always been an emotional eater so my mood has always dictated what and how much I eat. emoticon When I joined sparks a few years ago, that is when I realized that I was an emotional eater.
I have been on numerous diets, weight watchers, etc. I would lose 30 pounds only to gain it back and then some. It got to the point that no matter what I did or how much I exercised I could not lose weight. emoticon
Then came the knee injury this year - I thought that it would be simple back to work within a month. NINE months later I am not only at the highest weight I have been in my entire life but I CAN NOT EXERCISE due to same. About 1 1/2 months ago I think reached the lowest point in my life. I was overweight, depressed, and . felt as worthless as I have ever felt. As a christian that is pretty hard to admit and having the thoughts that I had I felt like a split person. I did not want to go to my pastor or his wife who are like my best friends - I was afraid of what they would think of me. .
I have always been harder on myself than others. So at this point I started really doing some soul searching. I started searching out about schools and found a niche where I will be able to work whether or not I can get around. I really feel that God is leading me to get my masters degree in forensic psychology and I will begin that difficult journey in December. emoticon
I also found that once I had found this my depression decided to lighten up. I had something to focus on - do not get me wrong - I have 4 beautiful kids who are all in high school and I love them very much BUT even they could not help me. They are what kept me going and still believing. emoticon
emoticon God led me to that so then I started to really listen - what else do you have or want me to do? emoticon I realized that God wanted me to get control of myself and my body. I started noticing a bunch of Facebook ads for various weight loss products. emoticon emoticon Wow!!! There are sooo many but I decided to look, research and pray about it. I felt God leading me to the IT WorKs! program. I started it about 1 week ago and I have already lost 18 inches and going!!! I am feeling better and looking up.
God always has a reason even if we do not understand. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RUNNINGOMA 11/23/2012 1:27PM

    Have you heard of chair exercise? There are things that you can do without using your knee. I don't really know to what extent your injuries are/were. But there is a lady (Indygirl is her screen name) who was bedridden, and was able to start exercising in this way. She has lost over 200 pounds. Obviously not overnight - but she has stuck with the stuff over the long haul. You might want to check her page out.
Here is her page:
>Looks like you are on the right track though and are seeing some progress. Just emoticon and never give up!

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NESARIAN 11/22/2012 10:42PM

    Wow, you really know how to take control and figure out what you can do and set about doing it! WTG! I am glad you worked your way through this tough time and have a plan. Faith can keep us going when we have no clue what else to do. You have strength and courage and are on your way to a new life. Yay you!

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