I did not start to really gain weight until my 7th grade year. This is when I started to become less active and my family had once again moved. It is always hard and difficult to move especially when you are younger.
As I got older and got out of high school I gained more weight, hung out with the wrong crowd, and started drinking and smoking. The older I got the heavier I got. The more disappointments I had, the more I ate -I have always been an emotional eater so my mood has always dictated what and how much I eat.
When I joined sparks a few years ago, that is when I realized that I was an emotional eater.
I have been on numerous diets, weight watchers, etc. I would lose 30 pounds only to gain it back and then some. It got to the point that no matter what I did or how much I exercised I could not lose weight.
Then came the knee injury this year - I thought that it would be simple back to work within a month. NINE months later I am not only at the highest weight I have been in my entire life but I CAN NOT EXERCISE due to same. About 1 1/2 months ago I think reached the lowest point in my life. I was overweight, depressed, and . felt as worthless as I have ever felt. As a christian that is pretty hard to admit and having the thoughts that I had I felt like a split person. I did not want to go to my pastor or his wife who are like my best friends - I was afraid of what they would think of me. .
I have always been harder on myself than others. So at this point I started really doing some soul searching. I started searching out about schools and found a niche where I will be able to work whether or not I can get around. I really feel that God is leading me to get my masters degree in forensic psychology and I will begin that difficult journey in December.
I also found that once I had found this my depression decided to lighten up. I had something to focus on - do not get me wrong - I have 4 beautiful kids who are all in high school and I love them very much BUT even they could not help me. They are what kept me going and still believing.
God led me to that so then I started to really listen - what else do you have or want me to do?
I realized that God wanted me to get control of myself and my body. I started noticing a bunch of Facebook ads for various weight loss products.
Wow!!! There are sooo many but I decided to look, research and pray about it. I felt God leading me to the IT WorKs! program. I started it about 1 week ago and I have already lost 18 inches and going!!! I am feeling better and looking up.
God always has a reason even if we do not understand.