Wednesday, November 21, 2012
The last year and a half has left me wandering, struggling with how to get to my goals? I have goals they were easy to set. 1) Get back to 135 pounds 2) Get Fit 3) Get Healthy.
March of 2011 saw me thrust into the role of primary caregiver for my Mother In Law. Who by the way had no love or fond feelings for me. I knew that everyday I cared for her up to the hours before she died she resented that I was the one to care for her.
I gave up a modeling career when I became her caregiver. But every day I met the day with a smile I knew what I had to do for this woman, who gave me the gift of my loving husband, during her last months of life. We had a routine one that had to be followed to keep her comfortable and give her as much life possible.
Before this new role, while I was working as a model, I had a strict routine. One that kept me on track with my eating, exercising, health and fitness. This routine put me on a few calendars, I had won a modeling competition against 20 and 30 somethings, did I mention I am 53? I knew routine and what it could do for me. By way of routine before I started modeling I was able to lose 73 pounds. I was able to look 30 again, I found my way to happy and healthy.
So what has been so different this past 18 months since my Mother in Law has passed away? As I said I have the goals, I have the desire, I have the motivation (tons of new clothes, shoes and gorgeous designer swimwear packed away in drawers and suitcases. All waiting for me to lose the weight and get back in them LOL). So what has been missing? How was I successful before and now I am wandering? Then this morning it hit me ROUTINE.
It is ROUTINE that sets the tempo for what we do in our daily life. Without it we wander through the day hit and miss and feel like we have accomplished nothing. I hear several of you saying “Routine is so boring” Whether you wish to acknowledge it or not routine is a very necessary part of daily living. Health studies prove that setting a routine time for going to bed and getting up makes a ton of difference in your overall physical and mental health. A routine exercise program can really help to shed those pounds, improve your attitude, boost your physical health. Routine meals times help with weight loss, attitude, energy and quality of sleep.
Routine is not a dirty word, Routine need NOT be viewed as boring but as beneficial.
I thought that therapy would help. I thought that setting new goals would make all the difference in the world. People had told me that all I had been through I was no longer the same person so I reasoned I must need new goals. I thought I needed to change who I was, I needed a fresh start (many of you may have known me here as Mobaygirl). It's funny but none of that worked it was as if I was running from who I was by working to reinvent myself. Which I don't have to tell any of you didn't work and just made me more frustrated and depressed.
Then today as I was going through some familiar motions of my life that it was ROUTINE that has been missing from my life. ROUTINE which I will embrace and let it set the pace of my daily life and drive me to reach my goals.