Wednesday, November 21, 2012
My day started well. I rested so well last night!
Wasn't too hungry when I got up which is great. It was difficult to prepare breakfast for my son and to smell the food cooking and know I couldn't have any. Has anyone else done a Juice fast while living with others who aren't?
It's been a slightly harder day today because my entire team ate their lunch around me. Burgers, subway, hot dogs, and pizza. Normally I don't even notice the smells of these things, but having had only juice and water for more than 24 hours the food addict inside me is screaming "I NEED SOMETHING GREASY" --- but I've decided to ignore her. It was that part of me that got me in this mess in the first place!
It's like a smoker trying to quit. I'm sure they have their moments of - I'm gonna die if I don`t have something right now.... but I won't give in. I just need to remind myself this may be hard, but so is living as an obese single mom and I do that every day. It's only 10 days. I can do this!
Got word of a fruit and vegetable market nearby that is supposedly cheaper so hopefully I'll be able to carry it out for the full time.
It's just the withdrawal talking. I just need to hang in there 8 more days.
For anyone thinking about this fast I would recommend doing the first 3 days on a weekend or time that you can seclude yourself a bit more. Ideally I was going to start on the weekend but I thought it would be easier to stick to it if I had my co-workers keeping me accountable. I'm more likely to cheat if I don't have witnesses (terrible I know!) but at least I know my weakness.
This is a step towards health and wellness. I'm not doing it just to lose weight... I'm doing it to try and break the addiction and retrain my taste buds to enjoy more simpler fare without all the extra sauces, dips, and bread.
Discomfort is expected, but ultimately I can control what I do or don't do. This is a battle of wills and I am determined to let the healthy version of me win.