Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Phooey. So last night was a bit hard. I wasn't feeling in the mood to be "good". We had chili which is a great dinner, we use boca meat and all the tomatoes, black beans, fresh peppers, added a carrot and onion and seasonings. So you can't really go wrong there. But little ol me, I add cheese and avocado, which avocado is ok. I did say no to sour cream. But, I had two biscuits with honey and butter, maybe half a sleeve of saltines. So here I am full, and I had to sneak, yes, I literally sneaked, in a piece of cheese, didn't wanted my DH to see me, I just couldn't say no. Then after all this is said and done, I have a snack sized bag of Spicy Doritos. It could have been worse. And bless my DH heart, I kept asking him to go get me a BIG bag of Spicy Doritos, he kept saying no. I can be a bit whiny when doing this, but he stuck to his guns. He said to go raid the rest of the snack packs of chips, but I thought, jeez, open all of those! Seemed a little much.
Still not feeling too motivated today. I did an hour of stationary biking this morning, yay for me. But tonight, DH will be out playing BBall, and I will be home with the three kids and a fridge. And it isn't a school night, soooooo, maybe some drinky drinks. Ugh! I'm not feeling very strong at the moment, and I know as soon as I get in the door, everything will just crash in on me. I don't handle stress very well. Feeling very vulnerable. And I'm not sure how to handle this. Advice? Anyone? Tonight will be tricky.