I am not my body, I am not my mind, I am my spirit
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
I have been having trouble lately finding nice exercise clothes that fit, are comfortable, and not horrible looking. I also have been having trouble with exercises and yoga poses that my current belly size/shape don't allow me to do. I have decided to stop trying to force the world to conform to me and I refuse to conform to the world. I will be transformed by this experience and find my own way.
I attend a yoga class once per week that is a beginner class and not in a brand-name, designer studio with outrageous prices and filled with students who have obviously been doing yoga for a long enough time to achieve the bendy-straw-type-poses.
I love myself...finally after years of hating myself. I am learning to love my figure even though it hinders me. I don't love it enough to keep it...my body has reached a place in its journey where aches and pains and arthritis cause me to finally want to change my unhealthy ways. I have been working on my mind first and foremost, delving into why I repeat bad habits. Then I started to do things that offered healing to my spirit. Now I am taking it one day at a time, one moment at a time to do things that offer healing to my joints.
Never give up. Take your time. Find what works for you. The suggestion to me was to set achievable goals for yourself. I started by meditating one minute each morning...just one minute. Then, I extended it to 5 minutes each morning and on to 10 minutes. The practice then spread to 10 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes in the evening and that is where it stays for now. I started attending one beginner yoga class per week. It is at 7:45 in the evening and seems to be a great time not to interfere with other family responsibilities. There is a water aerobics class at my YMCA on Saturday mornings that I try to attend fairly regularly. Small changes. Nothing too taxing. A lifestyle change does not happen overnight for this girl...it is a process, a process that will take as long as I want it to...but as quick as my aches and pains want it to. Love your spirit...it is who you really are. Listen to your body. Everyone has their own journey, their own path and there are very different things for different people. For me, listening to my body and really hearing what it needs is first and foremost to my personal success.
Blessings and peace
Om Shanti Peace