Wednesday, November 21, 2012
That's what is so hard for me. The everydayness of this process. Just doing it everyday. Going to the gym, making healthy food choices, on and on and on and on. I'm not really surprised, moderation has ALWAYS been hard for me. I prefer extremes.
Of course, extremes are how I got where I am now.
This is very difficult. I imagine it will be the hardest thing I've every done, and I think I've done some hard things. I've been an MP in the Army, I've been through a divorce and custody battle worthy of a Lifetime movie (for real), I've quit smoking, been broke, had a some money and been broke again, lost loved ones, oh, and I'm still raising four kids. But doing this EVERYDAY is HARD.
But I'm doing it. Slowly but surely. I'm still chugging along. Even when I wanted to quit the last few weeks, I went to the gym and made a half-hearted effort. Even when I wanted to eat junk (and sometimes did) I ate a lot less junk than I used to eat. Even when I thought, "Oh, the holidays. I can just pick up again afterwards." Baloney! I've worked too hard for the little weight I've lost to give up and do it again. If moderation is what it takes to do this, then I'm going to embrace moderation. No matter how much I hate it.
Maybe, just maybe, it's not so bad after all.