Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Well since my last entry there certainly have been some big changes in life. I got married, moved into our own place, made the decision with my husband to pursue seminary in the spring, and in the midst of all this the healthy eating and exercise changes have not happened. Everyone says that marriage makes people gain weight, and I never understood that and always said that would never happen to me. Well I still don't understand it but it happened to me. I hate to admit it but I have gained 10 pounds since getting married! My clothes don't fit well anymore, and I am starting to feel really...what's the word....icky. This weight loss journey is such a HUGE struggle and I feel so powerless sometimes. But then I remember the first of the 12 steps, admitting our powerlessness. As long as we think we have the power to control ourselves, we will never seek the Lord, who truly has the power to help us overcome our compulsive behaviors. So I am truly seeing my powerlessness and need to seek the Lord and the power and grace that he gives. I think I have realized something, that maybe I need to look at this weight loss journey as not so much a physical thing, but spiritual. Taking care of my body is being a good steward over what God has given me (my life and body), and therefore is an act of worship. So today I am deciding to seek the Lord in this endevor and ask Him for grace to tackle this.