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Asking for Prayers

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

I've been wanting to blog, but I have a really hard time blogging when I can't be positive. I will just ask a favor - Please keep me and my family in your prayers. There isn't anything major that has gone wrong lately. It is hard to put into the right words.

A large part of my frustration has been because of unexpected expenses that keep coming up and money is very tight. I'm not looking forward to Christmas. I've talked to the my daughters about this and they are fine with having a small Christmas. They are grown and they know that Christmas isn't about the money. But I'm having a hard time with not being able to buy anything. We have always been short financially and we scrimp and save and work like crazy trying to have something for Christmas. Christmas has always been my one time of year to splurge a little. And I do mean little and well this year even less. So please pray for finances.

Also pray for direction, that I'm in the place or places that I'm supposed to be. It often feels as though that I'm on a treadmill (and not for exercise) going nowhere. I do know that I am making a difference in people's lives, but my schedule is a bit crazy and it is starting to wear on me. I feel that something needs to change but not sure where or how that can happen. In other words, I feel stuck. I want to make a positive change and make things better and I don't see a way to get it done. Thanks Spark Friends!!
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  • DAISY443
    You definitely make a difference in my life! You are always there when I need a boost or a little kick in the behind!

    I totally understand about being strapped at Christmas. I have had to cut back to the point of being embarrassed at family celebrations. This year the granddaughters will get fingerless arm warmers I will crochet from leftover yarn. Each of my childrens families will get small flower pots, herb seeds and potting soil. Kind of a do it yourself gift. You are so talented I'm sure you could make pretty pillows or pot holders or some such thing!
    As far as not being in the place you should be, I think we all struggle with that from time to time. Hang in there, keep the faith aand bask in the love of your family!
    Many hugs and enjoy your Thanksgiving!
    1948 days ago
  • MAGA99
    may God Bless u thru this time
    1949 days ago
    I'll definitely pray for you and the part about "where should I be when" especially.

    That part I can relate to as within the first year plus of being an instructor I decided to pursue whatever opportunities I could. I'm not that person who can't say no to someone or something either. I wanted God to show me where and what I could do and it took many months and much "this is not logical (or profitable)" before some things turned around. However, I was having terrible foot pain and was worried about how I was going to continue. But, for the last 10 days I've been down with the flu like I've never been sick - but my feet are getting rested!

    So I will pray for your discernment - but not the flu. emoticon
    1949 days ago
    (Get ready for a long response!)

    I've been reminded a lot lately that the answers I've been looking for were within me all along; I just had to take the time to take that look within (and around me too.).

    I don't know about you but when I was in my 20's and 30's, it was a real struggle to pay the bills. I was doing much better financially during my late 30's and 40's but here we are again. I felt like I had already paid my dues, why do I have to go through this again? But then one day I was reminded of something. I had already been here; I learned, I survived and I would make it through again. I acquired a lot of coping skills in those earlier years and that's what Older and Wiser is all about!

    I know you know that feeling when you finally get a couple of bucks ahead and then something breaks and your extra money has to go for an unexpected repair. I can remember my mom saying, "Well, at least you have the money for the repair." I didn't quite appreciate that comment at the time but I see that it's absolutely true! There's a different sense of gratitude now for what I have and yes, if I have to use some of my savings for something unexpected, well at least I had the money available and I am truly thankful.

    The best money lesson I've learned (and I truly believe now!) both in my earlier days and during this challenging time in my life is that the money's always there when I need it most. When my niece first got sick, a friend of hers talked about her "God Can." "I can't pay this bill (or heal this illness or answer whatever other struggle we're facing) but God Can." She has a container that she puts her unpaid bills in and prays about. (I have 3 items in the God Can right now.) When I see it, I think, "I don't know how this is going to work out but it's not for me to worry about."

    Enjoy your day for the good things that are going to happen. Think about what the best part of Christmas is for you. I'll bet it doesn't have to do with money. (And if it does, I'll bet there are less-expensive solutions.) I do love a bargain now and I feel victorious when I've found something new with the tags still on in a secondhand shop (we are a wasteful society) or discover a new Dollar Store that allows me the same luxuries for little cash outlay.

    Good can come out of all of this, we are OLDER AND WISER! (And when we share the skills we've learned throughout our lives, we make a difference for those people who are just starting out and don't know that it WILL get better.)


    1949 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/21/2012 4:40:18 AM
    You don't know if your making a difference in people's lives??????? STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
    First of all I can tell your a good mom just by the way you said you talked to the girls and they know you can't afford much and they understand that Christmas isn't just about money/gifts!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS A HUGE LESSON TO TEACH OUR KIDS NOW A DAYS! YOUR MAKING A DIFFERENCE AND YOU DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT!!!
    Your teaching your girls that as long as there is love, you need nothing else and family is important!
    I'm in the same boat as you and had the same talk with my son and he's like your daughters he's fine with it , as long as he has us he told me that's all that matters, he knows its just my husband that works and we're teaching our kids not to be materialistic, that material things aren't what is going to make you happy in this life and you can't always get what you want.
    I'll say a prayer for you if you say one back for me hahahaha .... I saw that your married for 30 yrs and what a beautiful lesson to teach your girls about love that marriage isn't disposable just cause you don't have a lot of money... I'm married 17 yrs and there's no one I'd rather be with living pay check to pay check with then my husband.
    Don't sell yourself short, your making a difference to your girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and they are gonna make some lucky boys happy someday cause mom and dad gave them lots of love and didn't make them materialistic!
    Happy Holidays! emoticon Believe me I know it's tough , I get frustrated also, but as long as we have love we have more then people with a bank account full of money!
    1949 days ago
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