Tuesday, November 20, 2012
First off, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who commented on my last blog, or sent me notes of support and encouragement. I'm afraid I don't have it in me to thank you all individually, but I just want you to know that I truly appreciate all your support. It really helps a lot in dark times like these. Sadly, I don't really have anything new to report on the whole relationship front. Our "talk" kind of fizzled out before it even happened. My boyfriend apologized for acting weird, and for putting pressure on me, but really, it is time that we talked about certain matters. We are just putting off the inevitable. This is what comes of both of us being serious procrastinators. On Sunday, instead of talking the way we should have, we ended up getting stoned, watching movies, and eating a bit too much (don't worry, I did manage to keep things just slightly under control!). So I'm not really sure where this relationship is headed, really, but it's not over yet, and we still definitely need to sort out many things. And honestly, one of the worst things about this whole situation is I don't really know what I want. Part of me wants to stay with him always and part of me wants to spread my wings and explore new territories. I know this is not fair to him, so I better make my mind up soon. And I really need to know what he wants too, because really, I have no idea. We've both changed so much over the past year that it's almost like we're not the same people anymore.
On the healthy living front, I think I'm still doing okay, all things considered. It's nice that I seem to be able to curb my stress eating, for the most part. I'm kind of messed up with exercise this week, however, because my left hamstring muscles are still pretty sore. I might attempt to use my bike today, but will stop at the first sign of danger zone pain. I might have to stick with walking and upper and core strength training for the next few days however, which will totally mess up the weekly calories I need to burn. If I don't do some serious cardio, there is no way I'm going to reach that level. I HATE not being able to properly exercise! Woe is me if I ever get a serious injury. I don't know what I'll do then, but hopefully my weight won't balloon. So I'm trying to steal myself for minimal to no weight loss this week, which kind of drives me crazy. But c'est la vie, I suppose. I'm still ahead of schedule, so I really shouldn't complain, but I don't want to get to the stage where I fall behind because then I'm scared I'll never catch up.
I just want to end this blog by wishing all my American friends here a super awesome Happy Thanksgiving! Watch what you eat, but don't deprive yourselves! Life is meant to be savoured sometimes. ;)