Tuesday, November 20, 2012
My Come on Light Your Fire group issued a challenge today about re-evaluating our goals. I decided to go back to some of my very first blogs and try to remember what life was like. Here are some things I found:
I got excited over a 3 day streak of 5,000 steps - now I average 12,000
I was elated over doing a 5k in 55 minutes - today I felt I had an ok time at 33 minutes
I was huffing and puffing to force a 2 miles dog walk daily - now we go for 5 or 6 and I debate counting it as exercise.
I was accomplishing so much less but I was so much happier about it. Now I know someone is going to say it was because things were fresh and new. I don't doubt that was part of it. But the other part was I felt like I was ACCOMPLISHING something. I was changing and that was exciting. Now, I'm just doing and that can get boring. I want that excitement back.
I noticed something else too about those early blogs. I didn't set out to DO any of those exciting things. I just found myself in the moment and when for it. I was putting myself in situations that I had never been in (or had not been in in a long time) and just seeing what I could do. Was that the key to the excitement?
I re-read my entire first two months of blogs this am. I can tell you one thing, I'm not the same person. When I came here, I wanted to be able to walk my dogs without getting winded, be able to train without needing help off the floor, and no look like I was expecting. I can now run Tazzy, walking Gypsy I don't even count anymore. I'm sitting on the floor right now with a lap desk writing this so getting up and down obviously isn't an issue any more. And although I still have a "pouch" in my tummy, no one would mistake me for preggers.
So I think I've discovered my problems. I have achieved my goals and the new ones I've set are thing that I have already done (PT test). Yes, I need to work to re-achieve but it is not as much fun as doing something NEW. I also need to come up with things that challenge me to grow.
So I need new goals. I need new visions and dreams. Honestly, I'm not all that good at this kind of stuff. So, for a physical challenge the PT test stays and I have to just work it every day like we did in BCT. But those goals need to go hand in hand with something more abstract. And things more outside of my newest little box.
I have 4 of the next 6 days all to myself. I think the old brain box is going to get the real workout. I am going back to one thing I did in the beginning that I've stopped doing. I'm just going to start stepping out there again and taking on things as they come. Let's see what life wants to throw my way.