Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Okay...I am not going to lie but I am feeling a little frustrated at how slow the weight is coming off. Perhaps its seeing my other friends, who also just had babies, have the weight just fall off. One friend had her baby 4 weeks before me and she is 7lbs from her pre-pregancy weight. So it's a little frustrating.
So I needed to blog to get some perspective. As I was writing I was about to say I have only lost around 4lbs. But that's not true at all! Goodness. I just realized that I had gained 60 lbs with this pregnancy. When I began working out just over 3 weeks ago I was already down nearly 20 lbs! So actually I have lost 24 lbs already! I think I may adjust my tracker to reflect that.
I am still frustrated with the scale. But I am going to keep on going.
I have to say emotionally I have come a long way. Let me explain. When I lost the weight before I still felt like 'fat Amber'. I would be shocked every time I saw myself in the mirror or saw a picture of myself at how I looked.
I worked hard to emotionally accept that I was no longer 'fat Amber'. I wasn't really sure how far I had come until now. As I am working out I feel like 'fit Amber' and am now shocked when I look down and see that I am bigger...or that I have rolls when I do crunches. Or that I can't do push-ups on my toes anymore. I feel more like 'fit Amber' trapped temporarily in a fatter body.
To me that is huge! First it means I did emotionally accept the weight loss before. And secondly that I believe this is all temporary.
So yes...I am frustrated right now and need the support of my sparkfriends. But by summer 2013...by goodness I will be back into my fit clothes and rocking a bikini.
In fact....this is my goal: To look like this again: