Okay. I havenít lost all the weight yet, and I still have a very long way to go before I get there, but today I think back on where Iíve been, where Iím going, and where I am now.
Itís great. Today I may only be somewhat smaller and lighter than I was before, but itís so much better than that.
Iíve got more focus and drive than ever before. It was only about a year or two ago that I felt like I had lost all control of everything in my life from my waistline to my household and beyond.
But the good news is that Iím getting it all back. Transformation really is amazing.
For one thing, transformation rarely is compartmentalized to one area of oneís life even though it may seem that way sometimes. Itís more like a domino effect. As one thing changes, so does the next, and so on.
Iím loving it. It just takes some time and one thing Iíve learned here on Spark, and thatís consistency.
Today I find myself smiling more, hopeful about more things than ever and exhilarated beyond belief. I see the dominos falling and I couldnít be happier.
I know Iíve written about it before, but I think itís fitting to put some perspective to the things I mentioning here.
Itís amazing how hard it is to take care of oneís self when you get to be as over weight as I was at my highest weight of 382 pounds. I could barely walk at times, let alone stand. Things were hard and sometimes I had to ask for help. It was demoralizing. But now, on the flip side of the situation, the liberation from those circumstances is that much more exhilarating. Every area of my life was affected then, and it is now too. Thatís something Iím grateful for.
I donít need as much help doing things anymore and Iím finding victories every day in so many areas of my life. Iím glad I pushed through to find what I needed. It turns out, to a major degree what I need was SparkPeople, and TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly), along with some other things too.
Anyway, Iím writing this blog with the hopes that it will Spark some hope in someone who needs it. Just know, if youíre awaiting good things in your life, sometimes they are closest at the very moment that they seem the farthest off. The key is to keep hanging in there because those desired transforming moments may just be around the corner.
At the top of the page is a Wordl I made a while back, back when I was beginning one of the most transformative chapters of my life. Itís all the words that describe how I wanted to be. It was a great moment for me; it was after I made it that I realized I already was all of these things, I just had to be them.