Tuesday, November 20, 2012
It's been 10 weeks and I am still bleeding. I have Complex Endometerial Hyperplasia. The medication they prescribed to stop the bleeding does not stop it for me. But I find I do need to still be on that medication because it does at least slow it down to a more manageable level. So, the on call doctor called in another prescription for me. The hospital nurse is going to call tomorrow to go over getting ready for the surgery. Wednesday I am going to see my doctor for a pre-op appointment and get lab work done. I fear I may be still anemic and wonder if they are going to reschedule the surgery on Dec. 4 because of it. We will see what the lab work shows. I keep progressing with Finding Water by Julia Cameron because the wisdom of perseverance is teaching me better ways to cope with my health issues.
For example, On page 123 of Finding Water I really appreciate the slogans Julia Cameron shares. "One day a time," "Live and let live," "Let go and let God," "Easy Does It." I really had to practice "Easy Does it" several times at work because the pain and weakness of my health condition. I practice "One day at a time" to help me focus on just on what I can handle in a single day. I practice "Let go let God," as I place my well being and health in my Creator's hands.
Another example, On page 121 of Finding Water: The Art of Perserverance by Julia Cameron says "If you do find yourself lying awake at night, count your blessings and not your fears." It is very easy to plummet into despair and fear because of this ongoing health problem. Lately, I have been practicing gratitude and look at the wonderful people in my life including all those who have been very supportive of me as I go on this healing journey. I know I am not alone. The fact that you are even reading this means the world to me.
My Morning Pages are silent this week. When I am in extreme pain I find it harder to express myself. This seems to be the case right now.
Artist's Date I spent several hours putting together a special Happy Birthday video for my sister. I took a picture once on our way to the Lakefront Festival of the Arts in Milwaukee one summer and along the way discovered artist decorated Beasties. The picture is a shining example of happiness that was breaking through for her despite difficult circumstances she was going through. Yet there she was all smiling and aglow. I used GIMP and added "Happy Birthday Sass!" across the top. I added her full name on the bottom. Then I added a white border decorated by a single rose and musical notes. Then I recorded myself giving her a personal birthday message with my webcam. I had a party noise maker that I blew and I made up my own version of the Happy Birthday song adding la la la la which she said she loved both. Then I took pictures of her throughout her life and her artwork and created a slideshow set to music of me playing the Native American flute. She knew that the Native American flute music was played by me which tickled me. I was happy to use my creativity in a loving way to celebrate my little sister's birthday. She told me it was fantastic and heartfelt gift. That made my day!:D
I am doing great walking everyday. This past week I took 12,590 steps. And I traveled 5.58 miles traveled I want to work towards 14,000 steps a week. Baby Steps.
Issue of recovery is not to lose hope on my creative dreams. Sure this current health situation is a setback, but I don't want to lose sight on my greater goal which is to write my memoir. Sharing the stories and point of view of a Mohican woman's eyes I think will help others learn about Mohican people, but also help encourage other Mohican people to share their stories as well.