Tuesday, November 20, 2012
So, yes, I have almost gained all of the weight I lost back from last year! VERY IRRITATED with myself!!!!!
But, just finished "The Spark" with a little more permanent mindset here. It's not a matter of "starting over," because with that philosophy, there will always be" tomorrow" to actually get started. If I remember that this is a lifetime of change, and not just a temporary goal of weight loss, I might be able to overcome that "tomorrow" mentality. I saw someone's profile picture on here that said, "Yesterday you said tomorrow." That is by far the most difficult thing for me. Tomorrow I will go all the way, but today I'll just have this brownie sundae and eat whatever I want. The harmful thing about this way of thinking is that you lull yourself into thinking that you are going to make changes, thereby eliminating the "nag monster," while all the while you are in actuality not committed to change for real. Tomorrow is never NOW.
The biggest take-home message I got out of reading this book is the reminder that large goals are accomplished through the little daily choices. I know if I go back to the beginning of my blogs I will see that I probably said that before. But the "all or none approach" is such a deeply ingrained mental habit I have allowed my flesh to make me believe and obey. (It actually applies to many other areas of life. In my Bible studies, I am trying to learn to make those little decisions, like "how will my reaction to this person's glorify God?") Each time you make a proper decision, it strengthens you to continue doing right. Every time you deny the flesh, you learn that, yes, you really don't HAVE to obey the flesh in its lust.
I learned that I cannot let the tracking stuff slip. That is how I got myself into this mess back in December or January last year. I know I just cannot keep a mental tally of foods and skip even small, 10-minute workouts if I am to succeed.
Why is self discipline in all areas of life so difficult? I remember that "in my flesh dwelleth no good thing " as the apostle Paul writes. I realize that I am going to need the power of God to help me overcome the self-destructive desires of my flesh. I need to face up to the fact that overeating and slothfulness are just as destructive to my body (and thus get in the way of serving God on this earth) as say, drugs and alchohol. In all of these things we slowly kill ourselves by overindulging in those things and becoming ruled by them. I know I will die someday, and know because Jesus died on the cross to pay for my sins that I will go to heaven. But not paying attention to my physical body (especially as I get older) will hinder those things God might have planned for me to accomplish for him.
So, while I would LOVE to look great and feel attractive, I know I need to keep this more eternal goal in perspective, as well. But, when I start to rationalize with myself that it really has no bearing on my ability to minister for the Lord, I can always fall back on how I would really love to look great, too! :)
Just rambling to myself to get myself back into a proper focus. But why all this psychology? Why not just "get off the couch and stop being a lazy, gluttonous fool!!!!!" :)
YESTERDAY YOU SAID TOMORROW......well, here it is, it's tomorrow TODAY!!! or something like that???? ;)