This morning I woke up at 4, not able to get back to sleep. I have days like this, where I have all kinds of energy going on in my core, and although my brain is exhausted, I sort of just run on adrenaline.
I don't recommend having days like this. It makes anything that requires thinking very difficult. In fact, today's plan of applying to two jobs didn't happen. I did however get a kick-ass haircut. You know, as preparation for that face-to-face interview if it ever happens.
I walked the dog 5 miles at a fast pace and that helped for just a little while.
And because my brain failed to function properly, I had a huge misstep. I was listening to a podcast in which the speakers were going on and on about the Hostess products they'll miss. Now, I have to say, I have never eaten a Twinkie, and there are actually very few of the Hostess products that I've ever eaten. Many have lard in them. So my reaction came as a bit of a surprise to me.
Listening to this podcast, I developed a NEED for an apple fruit pie. I needed to go to the grocery store to get a few items for the food I'm bringing for Thanksgiving, and while I was there, I searched in vain for the coveted pastry. Naturally, there weren't any. But I did find a two-serving apple strudel. One bite of this and I was seriously annoyed. This isn't what I'd had in mind at all. I spit it out, threw the rest away, and stopped by Walgreens.
I knew that they wouldn't have the fruit pie, but I was hoping for something that would substitute. Finding nothing, I was thinking that I just really wanted something sweet. So I bought maple cookies. I ate three before I realized that they are 110 calories each. (I thought it was a serving of three, but I was SO wrong.)
On the bright side, it totally satisfied my sugar craving. On the not-so-bright-side, I'd nearly blown all of my calories for the day, AND I failed once again to remain mindful about what I eat. I won't tell you what became of the rest of that box of cookies; it isn't pretty and is probably illegal in some states.
These three cookies left me with 180 calories left for dinner. And of course, since I'd eaten so much sugar and no fiber with that snack, I got pretty hungry at about 7:30. And that's when inspiration hit.
I've got some Trader Joe's Organic Roasted Tomato and Red Pepper soup in the fridge. One cup is 100 calories. And I also have shirataki noodles that are 20 calories a serving. www.nasoya.com/products/
I ate two servings of the noodles in one serving of soup, and voila! A filling dinner that left me with 40 calories left for the day. (I always try to leave /something/.
So now, instead of berating myself for gravitating towards the sugar, I feel like a bleeping genius for coming up with a mostly sensible meal that fit into my day.
And now I'm drinking some "Goodnite Tea" with the hopes that I will be able to settle down and get some sleep.