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Four Years Ago Tomorrow and Other Musings

Monday, November 19, 2012

Four years ago tomorrow, I lost my wonderful Russian Blue boy cat named Bug. That morning, I spoke to him as I headed out to work. I could not reach him - he was curled up on a shelf right next to the door above my head and out of reach. Little did I know that was the last time I would see him. It took over two years for my BF to 'fess up that Bug died that day and he is buried somewhere in the back yard (don't get me started!). We have two other cats, but I still miss my boy!

I feel huge! I saw my picture on the video webcast during our team meeting and was horrified. I am so fat! I cannot move without pain, I feel stiff all the time and.......

Working two jobs and seven days a week is a real challenge. I got my first check on Saturday and it was nice to pay more than minimum on two bills and to get some groceries! I have a long way to go, but this sure felt good!
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    Awww.... that is so awful. I am so sorry. My condolences.

    1946 days ago
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    That is so sad about your cat :(
    Videos always add more pounds to anyone. But we never see ourselves in an objective manner. I rarely get my photo taken, but when I do, I truly look awful and not because of what I weigh. Some people just aren't photogenic.
    I don't know how you expect to look after yourself properly working two jobs, but I hope the extra money will allow you to at least buy nutritous, healthy food. You will need the proper fuel and energy to make it through your long days.
    I really feel for you having to work so very long hours :((
    1949 days ago
    1950 days ago
    I feel so happy for you. I have been there and done that before and it isn't nice. That is just another piece of the feeling 'huge' as you put it.

    So sorry for the loss of your cat. I know how hard that can be.

    Have a Happy Thanksgiving if you can. emoticon
    1950 days ago
    Sorry about your kitty. I have a 17 year old dog I adore, and I'm dreading the day. Teary eyed just thinking of it. OH I hate pictures of myself and it's getting worse...maybe because I'm getting worse! I need to take one of "those" pictures and put it on the frig I think. I used to live in Carmel (high rent) like your area. I worked 2 jobs for 5 years, finally I realized I needed to move and I came up to Sacramento and what a difference it made. I hope you don't have to do this too long, it is wearing, I know. Hang in there and enjoy getting those bills paid down.
    Best wishes. emoticon
    1950 days ago
    I am so sorry for you loss. Sometimes one particular animal just takes a special place in our heart and we grieve a little more. Just remember he will always be in your heart and in your memories. You can't lose that. :)
    1950 days ago
    My condolences on the loss of your cat.
    Working two jobs is no easy feat. Be kind to yourself!
    1950 days ago
  • KTRIBE808
    Such a sad anniversary! May sweet Bug visit you in your dreams. Remember, the love is forever.

    1950 days ago
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